I've been a writer at heart for as long as I can remember, but I stopped doing it for a very long time because I was afraid to be judged or ridiculed. That all changed during my first attempt at recovering from anorexia. It wouldn't be the last attempt, but for this first one to have any chance at all of succeeding, I knew I would have to do something I'd never done before. Something new.
I had to learn (and to some extent, I still am learning) how to manage emotions effectively rather than repressing them and refusing to acknowledge their existence, much less their legitimacy. More than that (as if I wasn't already facing a monumental challenge), I had to learn to live intentionally and for myself, according to my values, needs, and wants. I had to realize that I get to choose how to live my life and what kind of person I want to be. That doesn't mean I'll succeed in everything or always be happy, but you have to understand something: the existence I've had for much of my adult life, it's no kind of life at all.
I was able to make a deliberate choice: recover or die. Since I'm not dead, as far as I know, I have a lot more choices to make. Being a writer is who I am, just as much as anything else. I have to be true to that.
That being said, I focus primarily on politics, philosophy, and wellness. More recently, I've been embracing my interest in paganism and occult or esoteric practices, and I'm experimenting with erotica. It's an exciting time.