I know it’s a stupid decision, yet I took it. Why do I always do things, which embarrass me in the end?
Sitting on the sidewalk, seeing faces that are strange to me, is my favorite pastime. On top it’s the Valentine season, young love blossoming, couples rolling their tongues into each other, making fake promises. I adore this drama, also I used to be part of this whole brainwashing stunt some years ago, but right now, I am single ready to mingle.
First, I needed a stable job, and money to pay my rent and bills. The pandemic ruined our company, which took a toll on all the employees. I did not get my salary for the last few months and my company shut down. So, I am jobless and soon will turn into homeless.
To start afresh and to bring out some change. I considered perming my silky straight hair. I wanted luscious locks of curls falling on my forehead, but the perm turned out to be a disaster.
Now, my hair is looking like noodles, and it’s ruined my whole look. I spent 100 dollars on the whole process. Still, it did not come out as I expected.
I have rent to pay, bills, and study loans over my head. Then why did I invest it in such a childish whim? Sometimes, I have to consider rethinking before making impulsive decisions.
In this whole lockdown, I watched Oparah, you know, to get the boost of motivation you need. Instead of getting excited about my life, I got driven to mimic her hairstyle. I think my brain is wired differently, I always see the world in rose-colored glasses.
I was also kinda hit away by the new trend of #NewMeInNewYear. But why did I choose my hair?
I could have chosen a weight loss or fitness regime. Why did I choose this stupid yet expensive hairstyle? Even I don’t have answers for my stupid actions.
My stomach rumbled, signaling me about my hunger. I check my wallet. I have only 4 dollars with me. I can buy some donuts and a diet soda. I rise from the bench progressing towards my favorite bakery, but a strange smell stung my nostrils. I turned a whole 360 degrees to whiff the source of the smell but could not find it. I gazed at the sky and the ground to see if the source of the smell is nearby. I couldn’t find it anywhere.
“Put on some deodorant, miss,” a blonde girl shoved me from the pathway. While spitting the words on my face. I smelled my hair, and bam my nose burnt. The chemicals were still lingering on my hair, and now it was blazing the nostrils of people surrounding me. My style goes with a rule. I am told not to wash my hair for the next 48 hours. I think I should try to murder my landlord with this smell and solve my problem of rent debt.
I smiled upon my immature idea and marched down to the bakery.
“How much for the donuts, diet soda, and cookie.” I haste my words because my hunger was at its peak.
“It's 6 dollars and 50 cents,” said the cashier.
“It's Valentine's day, isn’t there any discount and donuts are 4 dollars, right?” I ask her with dismay.
“It's our policy when we put the discount board that means that there is no discount. We have these special donuts, not the regular ones, so it's expensive.”
“Just give me the cookie and the soda.” My stomach made an upset groan, even it was expecting the sweet donuts.
I turned from the counter with consternation and a growling stomach, when something icky got spilled over my shoulder. When I saw the source of the cold coffee spray, my eye's balls rotated 360 degrees. Its Max. Max Taylor, captain of the football team, a serious jock, an A grade student, a handsome hunk, a model, and whatnot. He still has those fox eyes with ocean color in them, his jawline was still in shape like it was 6 years ago. My heartbeat raced, blood rushed to my cheeks and a smile popped on my face. Do I still love him? I don’t know.
“Miss, I am sorry, this day is going worse for everyone,” he speaks with a honey voice while handing the tissue.
But I was gazing at the Greek god in front of me, feeling the butterflies like I used to 6 years ago.
“Are you going to gaze at him, like a raccoon for the next two hours too?” The voice interrupted my flow of thoughts bringing me back to reality.
I flushed more and apologized to the cleaning lady. The cold coffee was spilled on his navy blue suit and it stained his white vest.
“I apologize miss, I was not looking where I was going,” He had a sour tone in his voice.
“It's your habit, it can't be changed,” I murmured to myself.
“What?” He tensed his forehead while asking.
“Nothing, it's just…” The cleaning lady interrupted our conversation, even before I could continue.
“If you don’t want your parcel, can I take it?” the cleaning lady taunted me with fire in her eyes.
“Sorry, I will take it.” I took the package without even looking into her fierce eyes.
“It's just a cookie and soda. Can I buy something from you? Like a coffee or a donut.”
“I would love it,” I say without thinking.
We took a small table and he ordered a black forest pastry and warm chocolate milk.
“So, miss can I know your beautiful name?” He asked with a selfish grin.
“It's Rose, Max.”
“Ok, wait how do you know my name?” His body postured tensed.
“Max Taylor. Student of St, Joseph. A valedictorian with a famous personality. Had more medals than the hair on the head. Loved his girlfriend Veronica like Romeo to Juliet.”
“How do you know all that?” He flashed a charming smile.
“I was your batchmate. The girl who wrote a poem for your birthday.” Tears swell in my eyes while recalling the incident.
“Ya, that’s why I felt that I have seen you somewhere before. I remember you had an amazing smile and such beautiful eyes.”
“You used to tease me about my braces and once called me owl because of my specs.” I correct his narration.
“Ahh…” he paused a bit.
“I think, I messed up your description. But I remember you used to have these awesome grades and topped our English class always.”
“I flunked most of my subjects, and once you called me a donkey for getting the least score in the class.” Why am I recalling this and yelling in the public?
“Ohh, I think I messed up again,” His body language changed.
He continued to stuff his mouth while I kept talking.
“Let it be. The past remains past, by the way, how are you?”
He lifts his head and gulps down a huge chunk of my cookie.
“It's great, how is your life going?” A few pieces of cookie fly out of his mouth and land on the table.
“I am good. Are you still dating Veronica?” I don’t want an answer, but still, I ask.
“We kind of broke up a few days ago,” His face drops.
“It's ok, time will heal it. I think you may now feel the effect of my heartbreak. Just like I had felt 6 years ago.”
“Excuse me, what instance are you picking on?” His brows tense.
“It was your 16th birthday. I composed a poem for you and gathered some courage to sing it in front of everyone. But you poured a whole bottle of Mountain Dew over my head and made fun of my feelings. It's ok, it's not sensible to dig the past.”
“Umm, I hate girls with curly hairs,” he vaguely points in the direction of my hair. “ That’s why my behavior was kinda odd to you.” He again flashed his selfish grin.
“Wait, I had extra straight and smooth hair in my high school. You don’t remember me, right?”
I looked into his eyes with fierce emotions and balled up my fingers.
“It's tough to recall you. But I am trying,” he ate some of his words and spoke some.
“ Why did you buy me food if you could not recall me,” I gave him a confused look.
“Well, sorry to cut in your chit-chat, but it's 8 dollars in total,” said the waitress.
“I forgot my wallet in-home, can you pay?” he asked me without a pinch of shame.
“ You sat with me. So, I could pay for you, am I right, Max?” I stand up and place my hand on the table and fix my eyes on his face.
“Its.. n-o-o-t wh-at y-ou thin-k” he stammers.
“You know Max, you stammer when you lie. Am I right?” I want to punch his face, but control my senses.
“N-o-o, its n-o-t-t lik-e t-hat..” Before he could complete his sentence, I threw the water from the jug on his face.
“ You kinda deserve this.” A heavy feeling took off from my chest after doing it. I feel I took my revenge for his past deed.
“Excuse me, I think you forgot, but I am standing right here. So, who’s going to pay for the bill?” the waitress is controlling her laughter, and the whole café is recording, and having a good laugh seeing us.
I just don’t want this to go viral now.
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Heyyyy girl! How's your day been? How's everything at school?
I'm honestly stunned. This story contained so many delicately written details and descriptions and i adored the imagrey! Fabulous job <3
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Thank you so much. Online classes are going on, everything is amazing. I don't have ADHD anymore like I was borderline a few months ago but now it's not there.
How's your day been? Is school fine?
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Oh sweet! Yeah, i have the literal attention span of a cat and will get up to grab a snack/text some ppl and just never come back lol so i get that.
School is good! I'm going back hybrid in april! excited to see some friends again :)
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So, I read your bio, and I just wanted to let you know that sometimes when life throws you in an unknown situation or leaves you without a destination, stop to listen to yourself. Maybe you are trying to tell yourself something.
It takes a lot of courage to step up and be honest with yourself about your passions and who you are as a person. Being frustrated is common, but when you truly ask yourself, you'll find yourself.
Don't feel hopeless. Your life has meaning, and people's lives aren't meant to be spent chasing one purpose, or another goal that someone else has set for you. Talk to someone. Talk to your parents or your friends, because bottling up your feelings won't help, trust me.
Okay, that was weird, but you are an amazing writer and an amazing friend Radhika. I hope you feel better soon ❤️
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Thanks so much. Your concern and comment made my day. It really brought good feelings to me. Yes, I practice self-love but sometimes you just fall from the edge which results in outbursts. I had few outbursts here too. So, I quit here. My ADHD is no more, and I am very optimistic now. Thanks for reaching out.
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No problem! I completely respect your decision to leave reedsy but maybe try, instead of restraining your outbursts, expressing them on paper, or venting them out in a notebook just to release your feelings. (I know when I get angry, it can hurt people, but you shouldn't be afraid of expressing yourself). I'm glad you're feeling more optimistic 😊
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Thanks for the advice.
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This is such a great story! I especially loved: 'I always see the world in rose-colored glasses.' I think you wrote everything so beautifully! Well done!
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Thank you so much, Arwen. Your feedback made my day.
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Please don't leave. Please come back. I have, like, 44 points and i don't care. We don't need points to justify how good we are at writing. Please come back. You are an amazing writer and In don't care how many points you have. Come back. Please?
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Awwww, Emerald. Let it be. Even I don't care about points. It's just that few people sometimes trigger you. I sometimes come here, you know to read stories and all.
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Yeah. They want you to leave to make even more people sad, so don't let them get ahold of you. Keep on smiling and keep on writing and don't let them cramp your style!
(This is adapted from a mom talk btw)
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Mom's talk is always the best, by the way how are you, how is your school?
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Good.
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hehehehe part 7 out :)
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part 6 out!
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HEHEHHEEHEHE PART 5 IS OUT XDDDD!
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Hey Radhika! Sorry it took me so long to get around to reading this!! I absolutely love this!! I think a lot of it is so relatable for almost everyone. The ending is so funny and clever! As far as grammar corrections go, I didn't see anything that needed fixing, so great job!! Thank you so so much for sharing!!
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Thanks so much for the feedback, happy to see you here again.
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Thanks so much for the feedback, happy to see you here again.
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No problem!! Thank you! :)
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part 4 out! Don't ask me how i write so fast :)
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part 3 out! (Legions of Legends)
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You have a great sense of humor that you express very well with you writing!
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Thank you so much.
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I read this earlier sorry I didn't leave a comment right away, I got pulled away. Anyway, I thought this story was fantastic. I loved the humor in it, and you did an amazing job writing this story. I will definitely check out more of your stories soon. Great Job!
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Ohh, but I kinda like your writing style more. You can read my first story and leave a comment there and you know can see my journey.
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Oh, I will. I plan on reading more of your stories soon. Some of my first stories on here show how far I've come too, but we all have to start somewhere right? When I read one of your stories I will leave a comment ;)
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part 2 out! (Legions of Legends)
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Can we chat on Hangouts?
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Hey, I would love your feedback on one of my latest stories called 'Still Have Each Other' :)
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Legion of Legends part 1 posted! (It's the story that you made up characters for me)
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I think the cashier at the beginning could have been a little mellower. It seemed like she was a little wound up too tight. I would've liked to see her kind of chill and uncaring. And the other characters that come in contact with the main character were funny. It added a nice touch to the story. Other than that, this story flowed really well. I really loved the imagery and how vivid it seemed. Good job, Radhika!!!
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Thanks, actually it's my first attempt at the story. Nothing else than that.
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Thanks, actually it's my first attempt at the story. Nothing else than that.
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It was an amazing story!!
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hi!! wow, i really felt your bio <3
if you read MY bio, you can see that I just got back on here too and yeah, the upvoting stuff is crazy ahahah
but this community is really lucky to have you be a part of it! You're an amazing writer and its an honor to read your writing!
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I really don't know you but your comment made my day. Thanks for the comment. I have a request can you give me feedback on the first story so you can kinda see my journey and improvement.
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Nice, I could feel the heat--especially in the last ticking seconds of the final few paragraphs.
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Ok, I’m just gonna say - The first two sentences totally grabbed me.
The whole idea was pretty unique and awesome! A few things, just be careful about the tense. The writing seems set in past and yet present tense. A few times, it just flip flops, but it’s nearly unnoticeable so you’re good. :) Also, maybe start a few lines of dialogue with the action, like, for instance:
I say without thinking, “I would love it.”
Or something along those lines. You just start a lot of your lines with dialogue which gets a bit monotonous after a while. It’s still goo tho!
But otherwise, great job! This was amazing!
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This story was really funny, and for your first attempt at humor, I think you nailed it. (I have challenged myself to also write humor for the first time this week...I always write these sad depressing stories 😑). Anyways, great job on this Radhika!
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Once again, I absolutely adored this story! I thought the voice was great, and for your first attempt at humour, this certainly had me laughing. The narrator was written in a fun and relatable way and the interactions between her and Max were great! I feel bad for the cashier standing there and watching this all go down. That last sentence had such a great punch. Your writing has really improved so much, and I would be sad to see you go, but I do understand your reasonings. Just know that I will always support you in your writing. If you would still like me to give feedback on your future stories, you can always email them to me at: yolandawu1027@gmail.com.
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You have been the most loved person of mine on reedsy. I love you a lot and you inspired me to write stories with values. Your feedbacks always encouraged me. People like you always bring light to people's lives, you are very special to me. Thanks for reading my stories and leaving wonderful feedback.
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Awww, thank you, Radhika! You have been one of my closest friends on here as well, you'll definitely be missed.
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It's really sad to see you go, Radhika. We'll miss you. I support your decision, and I'm sorry Reedsy was so hard on you. Love you <3 💐
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this was good, but a little hard to follow. It also felt a bit rushed, and the cleaning lady and what? it was a little confusing, to be honest. but, i saw bits and pieces of humor, so that was good on your part.
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sorry for the inconvenience. Actually, I tried to try a new genre and new style of writing. Its script writing form and the cleaning lady was the woman who came after the cold coffee was spilled.
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it was interesting, and I am not very familiar with script writing, but that might just be me. I'd appreciate some feedback on my latest story series Destiny if you ever have time :)
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Great story, Radhika! I'm sorry for taking sooo long to read this, it's been a pretty busy week ://
Lol the whole world shall see Max's shame XD lol he's prettyyyy mean, she should've thrown the food at him as well, getting water thrown at you is nooothing compared with mountain dew, it's sticky and disgusting and eek, lol hehehhehe it's gonna be preeeetttyyy embarrassing for Max to walk around if the recordings blow up.
As for critique, there were lots of unnecessary comma used in the first half of the story...ooother than that, everything else seems to be fine. Great detail and description, a flowing dialogue, aaaand overall.... seems to be a great story!
Great job, Radhika! :))
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Thanks, Danny for taking out your time for reading my story. Actually, I used Grammarly and it suggested the commas.
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yeah, that was probably just me, great job, Radhika! :))
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Thanks, Danny for taking out your time for reading my story. Actually, I used Grammarly and it suggested the commas.
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