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I wake up, I think.

Something feels different.

The air is heavy — stagnant, like it’s been frozen in time.

The clock ticks, but the sound comes back wrong, twisting off the walls before it dies.

Is this a dream?

I look around, and even the colors seem faded. What used to be bright blues and purples are

now washed out — grayish, stripped of life.

Am I seeing this right?

I go to the bathroom to wash my face. Maybe I’m just off today.

I turn the faucet, but no water comes out. Just a dry, hollow hiss.

When I look up, the mirror is fogged over — thick, like breath on glass. I wipe at it, but the fog clings stubbornly to the surface.

What is going on?

I stop to listen. For the clinking of dishes, my parents talking over coffee, the soft music my mom always plays in the mornings.

But there’s nothing. Just silence. Deafening, swallowing.

I call out for my mom — or I try to. My mouth moves, but no sound comes out. Not even a whisper.

Panic crawls up my neck. Why can’t I speak? Where is my mom?

Then, suddenly—

I’m in the car.

Passenger seat. The world around me is moving, trees streaking by outside the window. My mom’s voice cuts through the air like a knife sliding through butter — smooth, sharp, almost too clear.

“Did you hear me?” she asks. Her voice echoes, distant and doubled.

I blink. How did I get here? Was I sleeping?

“Oh, um—sorry. What did you say?”

“Honestly, where did your head just run off to? I’m trying to have a serious conversation about the college fair this weekend.”

“I’m sorry, Mom. I’m listening. But nothing you say can change my mind about Berkeley. That’s where I want to go.”

She sighs. “I get it. I just think it’s good to have options. Anyway—” She pauses as the car slows. “We’re here. Have a good day, sweetie.”

“Ugh, Mom. I’m too old for ‘sweetie.’”

I glance out the window. We’re at school.

She smiles — the kind of smile that aches with warmth. “Never,” she says. “You’ll always be my sweet little girl.”

I roll my eyes and open the door.

The sound of it should be sharp — a clean click as it swings open — but it stretches, echoing, like time’s been pulled thin.

My foot hits the ground.

And suddenly, it’s not pavement beneath me. It’s carpet.

I blink hard. My backpack slips from my shoulder, thudding softly onto the floor. I’m standing in the hallway again. My hallway. The same muted light, the same thick, frozen air.

My breath catches. The smell hits me first — that faint mix of lilies and something metallic, faint but wrong.

“Mom?”

I try again, forcing the word out. It scrapes my throat like it doesn’t belong there.

The silence swells around me, pressing in.

I turn back toward the door, but there is no door. Just the hallway stretching longer than it should, shadows collecting where they didn’t before.

My pulse is in my ears now, quick and hollow. I squeeze my eyes shut, whisper to myself — wake up, just wake up, wake up—

When I open them, nothing has changed.

I grab the nearest door ahead of me and yank it open.

Nothing.

Just dark — endless, heavy dark that seems to breathe. I slam it shut and try another. Then another. Each one the same. Blackness stretching forever, swallowing the light behind me.

“This has to be a nightmare,” I whisper, or maybe I only think I do. “Why can’t I just wake up?”

The shadows begin to move. Slow at first — spilling out from the doorways like ink in water, reaching across the floor toward me.

Whispers rise with them, soft and fractured.

My name.

I swear I hear my name.

And somewhere beneath the whispers… someone crying.

The sound grows, twisting through the hall, until it’s everywhere — until I can’t tell if it’s coming from them or from me.

“Where can I go? What do I do?” I spin, searching for an exit, any exit.

I run down the hallway — fast, heart hammering — but the moment I blink, I’m back where I started. The same walls. The same shadows. The same breathless silence.

“What’s happening to me?” I try to scream, but the sound catches in my throat again — a dry, useless choke.

Nothing comes out. Not even a whisper.

I’m back in the car again.

With my mom.

We’re driving. The world outside the window blurs by in streaks of color that don’t look quite right — too slow, too fast, folding in on themselves.

Time feels unreal. Like I’m missing beats. Like everything’s skipping forward and backward all at once.

Is this real?

My mom glances at me and smiles.

Something about it feels wrong. The curve of her mouth stretches too far, like her face can’t quite hold it.

“Mom,” I say, my voice barely more than a whisper.

She doesn’t answer. Just keeps smiling. Staring.

I turn my head toward the road — and my chest tightens.

A truck.

It’s swerving into our lane.

“Mom!” I scream.

The world explodes into white.

Tires screech. Metal tears. My mother’s voice, soft and fading, echoes through the light.

“You’ll always be my sweet little girl.”

Then — silence.

White.

For a moment, that’s all there is — a blinding, endless white that hums in my ears. Then, slowly, sound begins to seep in. Soft murmurs. Shuffling feet. A faint, broken melody.

My eyes open.

I’m standing somewhere unfamiliar. The air smells like wax and flowers. Rows of people dressed in black fill the room, their heads bowed.

A church, maybe.

My throat tightens as I move closer. My shoes make no sound against the floor. No one looks up. No one even seems to see me.

At the front, a framed photo rests among white lilies. For a second, I think it’s someone else — a mistake — until my breath catches.

It’s me.

The same photo my mom took before senior year, when she said the light looked “kind.” I used to hate that picture.

My mom is in the front row. Her shoulders tremble, her face buried in her hands. Someone reaches out to comfort her, but she just shakes her head.

“She was so full of life,” a voice says somewhere behind me.

“Too young,” another whispers.

The words float around me like dust, sticking to the air. My pulse — or what’s left of it — starts to quicken.

“This isn’t real,” I whisper. “This can’t be real.”

But it is. I can feel it.

My mother lifts her head. Her eyes are red, hollow. She looks right past me — straight at the coffin — and her lips move.

“You’ll always be my sweet little girl.”

Her voice cracks on the last word.

The room begins to fade. The sound of her sobs dissolves into static. The flowers wilt and the candles burn out all at once, plunging everything into gray.

Then — darkness.

I wake up, I think.

I’m back in my bed again.

The room is still — too still. The air feels thick, unmoving.

I lift my hands. They’re covered in scratches, streaks of dried blood along my wrists and fingers.

It all comes rushing back — the silence, the shadows, the car, my mother’s voice.

This wasn’t a dream.

I’m dead.

The thought doesn’t frighten me. It just sits there, quiet, heavy, true.

Somewhere, I think I hear her voice again — soft, echoing through the stillness.

“You’ll always be my sweet little girl.”