Burn

The worst thing in the world is unwanted help and unrequested presents with no receipts. Wouldn’t you feel better if we cleaned your apartment when you were gone? Then, you’d have a clear path and the fire department requires that you have a clear path. The fire department, huh? Well, then and the Department of Health. We’re required since this fucking facility, which I never asked to be in, has regulations mandated by the fucking state of Georgia, which I never asked for. “Liberty and Justice for all”; all except the damn disabled.

Well, you asked for government assistance, right? No, my slave owner requested government assistance and threatened me to sign a contract and if I appeal, I’m homeless and hungry. Fuck the USA. The constitution doesn’t apply to me since I’m disabled and disabled people aren’t American, they’re disabled. But, it can also, mean I’m not responsible for my actions. Isn’t that interesting? If I go out of this community, the police, firefighters, everyone in the government will be looking for me. Can’t go out without my supervisor assisting me. Fuck the supervisors, killed the bastards who mandate this. Kill the CEO of this shit hole. You must have anger management issues. No shit! You live here and watch your amygdala grow. Thank God for the internet.

No sex, can’t choose what or where we eat, hell, can’t even have friends unless my legal guardian approves of them but cleanliness was the camel that broke the straw’s back. Remember the Fourth and a half amendment? It says breaking, entering, and theft are illegal I have the right to my possessions unless it poses a threat or attracts bugs or they don’t like it. They have a master key to keep us safe and we can’t have boundaries.

Legal guardians didn’t feel like therapy was making me better or doing anything so they cut it off. I’ve attempted five times but none of them succeeded. If they’d succeeded, I’d be dead. But, if I’m not dead then why am I still in hell? Can’t even decide what meds I take, when or where to take them, but fuck it. We go shopping every other week and I’m on a budget, but I’ve gotten cash from other places off the books and supermarkets sell red gas containers and I there’s a gas station near by. Need oil and a rag, but I’m resourceful. Also, something to spot doors from opening. Don’t you feel better when your home is safe? No and maybe after this they’ll get it or hopefully all the fucking bastards will be dead.

May seem stupid to the reader: burning down the fire station since they have everything they need to put it out, but there are different kinds of fire and the reader …. Oh, you already do? Then I won’t have to explain what he’ll fire is. Good. Firemen can’t put out hell’s fire and neither can firewomen. The only way to put out hell fire is to let it burn out with all those bastards and bitches inside it. Oh, and let’s not forget about the mandatory fire drills at 2 am, because you know, a fire could start at any time. Forget that in 43 years there has not been one motherfucking fire and the fire department already put up sprinklers to destroy our books so on the shot in hell, there was a fire, that would put it out. It’s just about the goddamn paper pushers getting paychecks for driving us crazy.

But, if they didn’t do this, how would we stay safe? Very easily, that’s how. Make the goddamn governors do this in their homes and see how quickly it’d stop. But no one gives a shit about gays or the disabled and lucky me, I’m both.

And how to take care of the assholes in the department of health? Fire with them might work, but at the same time or not? Or use something else like an ak-47 or food poisoning or something. Then, they’ll stay out of our homes and out of our lives. Shikspeare told us “A dead man tells no tales “ and they stay the fuck out of our homes too.

But, am I heartless? What is these fire people have spouses and children. Who’ll raise them and take care of them? Don’t know, don’t give a shit. Because of legal guardianship, I can’t drive, own a car, get married, or anything. This goddamn government doesn’t give a shit about me, why should I give a shit about them? And you’re the lucky one, you were allowed benefits, others have been denied. The marijuana’s always greener on the other side.

But no one gives a shit. When I do this, it’ll be in the news and the morons watching the boob tube (boob means idiot, not boob), the viewers will probably say, “Poor firemen and firewomen. They should lock up the disabled and make stricter laws”. So, maybe I should just kill myself. Get books from the library about anatomy and physiology and figure out the least painful way to end it. Then, I’ll be free of the assholes at the fire department and the department of health and they’ll read my suicide note about why and they’ll defund these goddamn bastards and I’ll be the Dr Martin Luther King of the disabled, but they won’t care, the public doesn’t care. Nobody cares, unless it affects them.

Blow up the city center? Mass shooting? I don’t want that. I just want them to stay away from me, my possessions, and my body. I’ve put up signs like “Private property: Hunting, fishing, trapping, or trespassing for any reason is strictly prohibited. Violators will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law,” “Do Not Disturb”. “The Best way to see God is to go to church, the quickest way is to trespass,” “Forget the dog, beware of owner,”and lots of other ones, but the staff stole them too. Bastards. They found them offensive.