Goodbye My Love.

Warning: Language, sad scenes

“Fine, i’ll go then” i scream at the top of my voice then I slam the door. My home life hasn’t been easy, My mum seems to never have time to do stuff with me, and my dad well he always comes home drunk and half asleep. I’ve always been an only child, but I like it that way. I grab my bags and stuff them with everything a teen girl needs . My mum kicked me out because she couldn’t cope with me, which is fair enough but I still don’t think it was necessary. I walk downstairs as quiet as possible and walk out the door having already put my shoes on before i packed. I knew exactly where I was going, where better than the house of the person I love, my boyfriend, he lives a 45 minute bus journey from my house. How convenient? I set off down the street to the bus stop, messaging him on the way

Me: Mum kicked me out can i live at urs for now?

Liam: yeah sure how long will ya be?

Me: about 45 mins just waiting for bus now

Liam: ah okay see you soon babe, love you??

Me: Love you more

I hope his parents are okay with me staying. I’m sure they will be, because I’m pretty sure they like me. I see the bus coming and put my hand out and wait for it to indicate, it pulls up almost immediately after I put my hand down. The doors open and i step onto the strange smelling thing. I say where I want to go, pay and make my way to one of the seats at the front. Buses are always dirty and smelly but if it’s the only way to get around places round here then i’ll cope. I must’ve fallen asleep because when I looked out the window i could see him, my boyfriend waving for the bus to stop. “oh, shit " i say thinking that i could’ve missed my stop if it weren’t for liam waiting for me. I get up quickly from my seat and say thank you to the driver and walk outside wondering why the sun had to go down now when i was supposed to be walking to Liam’s house. I walk up to him and kiss him on the lips smiling then I say “right, off to my new home”

2 HOURS LATER

Liam’s parents have arrived home from work, i had asked him before if they knew i was living here for now and he said they most likely did because they seemed to know everything. “shall we go and greet them” he asks while already walking downstairs. I roll my eyes,smile and walk downstairs. “hi mr and mrs sheen, do you know that i’m living here for now because mum kicked me out” i say all nervously but the comfort of my boyfriend’s hand cheered me up. they look at me with sympathy, “yes we did " they say “welcome to the family” I smile amazed at how i managed to find such a loving family.

Today is college and i never look forward to that. Nobody likes me there, i have no friends and i’m bullied every day, just wait and see.

I walk into the hall to everyone being nasty bout me, these are just some

Hey love, have u decided to leave college yet or am i gonna enjoy another year of bullying you.

Heard you got kicked out, serves you right tbh

You homeless now or u living with ur shitty boyfriend?

Go to hell, it needs you

You need to die

I couldn’t believe people could be so mean, it’s not my fault my mum married my dad or my mum is too busy to worry bout me. I got on with my day trying to forget all those voices in my head telling me that i really did need to die. Let me tell you, It’s so tempting to believe them but i didn’t.

The end of the day finally came and i was truly exhausted. I caught the bus to Liam’s house and the first thing i did when i got home was lay down and cried.

A couple of upsetting hours later, I was still curled up on the bed, staring at the wall like it had been chatting to me. My head was pounding, my mascara was halfway down my face, and I felt like complete crap.

Then my phone buzzed. I grabbed it, expecting Liam. Instead, it was a message from some girl in college I barely even spoke to. You need to check Snapchat. Right now. My stomach dropped. I opened the app with shaky hands, and there it was. A video from some party I didn’t even know Liam had gone to. Loud music, flashing lights, people screaming the lyrics to some awful song — and right in the middle of it was Liam, with another girl. Not just standing near her. Not just talking. His hands were on her, and then he kissed her like I meant absolutely nothing.I stared at the screen, frozen. “You’ve got to be kidding me,” I whispered.But it kept playing.>Someone in the background was laughing. Someone else shouted, “Liam, your girlfriend’s gonna lose her shit!”And he didn’t even pull away.He just grinned.That was the part that really bloody broke me.Not the kiss. Not even the girl. The grin.Like I was a joke. Like I was a joke.I threw my phone across the bed and stood up so fast I nearly tripped over my bag. “You absolute bitch,” I said, voice shaking. “You lying little, little. child” My whole body felt hot and cold at the same time. I wanted to scream, cry, throw up — all of it.And then my phone buzzed again.Liam calling.I actually laughed. A horrible, cracked little laugh. “Oh, now you want to talk? Go away.”He called again.And again.Then a message came through.It’s not what it looks like.I stared at it, genuinely speechless.“Not what it looks like?” I said out loud. “It looks like you were all over some girl at a party while I was here crying my eyes out, you complete dickhead.”Another message.Please let me explain.I felt something in me snap.So I typed back with shaking fingers:Explain what? That you’re a cheating arsehole? That while my life was already going shit, you thought you’d make it worse? Don’t bother. We’re done. I hit send before I could change my mind. Then I switched my phone off completely and sat back down on the bed, breathing like I’d just run a marathon. It was mad, really. This morning I still thought Liam was the one decent thing in my life.Turns out he was just another person willing to use me for no reason, where was i to go to next, a strangers house, not .sure that would be a help to me.

I could live with my cousins who live all the way across the other side of the country. I rethought and decided it wasn’t such a good idea after all, but where would i live, streets nope too dangerous, i could live my granny and granddad but they don’t really like me either and my dads parents died when i was 11.