The one who made me realize i didn’t need it

I thought my Dagger was something that needed to be hidden before all carvings, simply because I believed mine wasn’t worth much.

But then he didn’t notice the scars I saw as practically ingrained in me as a whole; he looked at me like I was human and worth appreciating.

I have never been someone who's seen as just normal. Before him, I was either underestimated or overestimated never really seen as a person with feelings.

But with him, I felt seen, like he single-handedly brought me back to the present by just existing. I used to look at him, and my thoughts, which would usually run wild or drive me up a wall, would just stop at the sight of him.

He had this way of freezing time and making you feel like there was nothing more valuable than a simple moment with him.

I looked at him and would pause in absolute awe that a person like this actually exists, someone so beautifully made that people can't help but want to be near Including myself admittedly so.

I no longer see or hear much about him, nor have I seen him, but I don’t mind waiting, even if I know he won't return; my heart has made a room for him, and I'll clean it every day until he returns or until I no longer inhabit my body.

He was someone whom you didn’t really feel the need to explain yourself to, like he knew you before your soul could whisper what had been going on.

He was strong, and he stayed strong for others when they were weak. He was far too misunderstood for someone who knew how to exactly comfort someone.

It's not that he had the right words or actions; he had the right intentions, and he made them clear as day. He was kind but not friendly, and that often bothered people. It bothered them because they had no real control over him. He was free and showed people what freedom is like.

you know someone asked me today what love meant to me.My response?

I answered You

I think at the start I didn’t love you because of you being so overconfident,

or because you loved me. I think I just liked loving you.

You were just someone who could handle the love I could give and knew how to respond but slowly after I started loving You because of how you are.

The way you carried yourself ,

how you stood up for others ,

Even when you teased me you’d always feel bad and try to make me laugh afterward,

you had such a sincere heart and yet was the most misunderstood ,

it didn’t matter to others that you had helped them but you only seemed to matter to others when you were succeeding.

I loved and understood you when you needed it the most and now my want for the feeling of being wanted ,succeeded the feeling of being needed.

I don’t know what to do now but if I could tell you anything that the world has to offer

I’d tell you there was never one time I hated you

there wasn’t one time I didn’t care for you I never saw you as useless or anything less than extraordinary

There wasn’t one time where i have ever gone day without thinking about you loving you with all my heart

And there has never been a day have ever loved you to the amount you deserved

I love you not casually or explosively or temporarily but genuinely

I know i want to spend the rest of my life with you

Because I’ve thought of this life and the next

I know I love you because even when everything has faded i don’t see your smile i can hear fragments of your laughter and we are not even close anymore

but my love for you is like a knot that hasn’t budged from day i knew i wanted to be with you 4th period science Friday 4th July 2024.

I have loved you since the 20th of June 2024

But knowing me if i ever saw you again I would probably choke up instead

and call you stupid all a while I tilt my head with a smile at your annoyance because I can’t burden you with how I feel because my love has grown into something I know you can’t bear,

I know you will probably never see this either ,because i will hide it without a doubt, If there is anyone who deserves to love you, in the way you need, want and someone who you will love as well

I know its not me.

I do still think of you it’s almost like you haven’t left

,you

changed my life so much that even when I’m sad ill think of you and smile ,when I’m happy I mourn the fact i can’t share the moment with you,

I know you don’t like me anymore or perhaps you’ve never liked me but i still don’t care

,It might be stupid that I like you,

,i don’t know how someone gets the blessing to know you and isn’t enchanted by how you absolutely embody authenticity and sincerity

,i know no human is perfect including you because we all have our flaws however i have fallen in love with all of yours

,if that’s what you call love then i think that’s what i feel

I know you too well.

,That’s the issue you’re too extraordinary for me to even think about because when I so much as even do that i fall deeper in love.

I don’t mind drowning in my admiration for you

I don’t care how long it will take until i see you again I have a lot of things to say before i go but to summarize it

I love you.

My love ,I have always chosen you and I will always choose you over any person destiny itself has to offer.