Her diary

Dear diary                                Jan 25, 2000                                                        

Today I got you for a gift! I had an OK birthday. I turned ten today! You are the best gift ever and I love your pink fluffy cover and the feather pen that came with you. I like to write a lot. My name is Fae and I am so happy uncle Monty got you for me! but I’m tired so I’m going to bed now diary.

Good night!

From Fae

Dear diary.                                 Jan 29, 2000                                                                                        

Today I was at school and a lady asked me all sorts of questions. Who my mommy and daddy are and all about my life. She smelled pretty and even had a funny jacket that was the same colour as her pants. She said she would be my new friend. As long as she is not like Tyler he pulls my hair a lot. But I need to go now, mommy called me for dinner and it’s shepherds pie! My favourite 

From Fae

Dear diary.                                Feb 12, 2000                                                           

Today that lady came to visit me at home. I don’t like her anymore. She made mommy very sad. She said we were going to visit someone else’s house. Because I don’t sleep at night and they think it’s bad. I read all night under the blankets until it’s light out because I’m scared of the dark and mommy won’t let me keep my light on all night. The lady said it will only be for a week. Maybe not even that long. I’m scared but I’m glad I have you diary. Mommy says I have to go pack now. I love you diary.

Love Fae

Dear diary                                  Feb 16, 2000

It’s not going to be just a week and I don’t know what to do! I was spying like harriett the spy girl from my favourite book and I heard sandy tell John they need to get us into classes to keep us busy. They lied to us again and I want to go home! I wish you could talk diary, I’m sure you’d know what to do.

Love Fae

Dear diary                                   Feb 20, 2000                                                        

It’s Terris birthday today. I’m sad we’re not at home for her birthday. We both miss mom and dad. The foster mom got her lots of pretty gifts like dresses and dolls. I just want to go home. But it’s night now and Sandy will yell if we are not in bed when she comes up

Love Fae

Dear diary.                                  April 8, 2000                                                       I want to go home for Easter. My uncle Monty died last month and my mom said from a broken heart I heard Sandy tell John. I want my mommy! He was so old but I didn’t ever think he would ever die ever! I want to go home now! Uncle Monty is my favourite uncle and I couldn’t even say goodbye. I told Sandy I want to go home and I won’t eat u till I do, But Sandy says we can’t she says that mommy and daddy have to go to class but I don’t know why they have to go to school when they’re old. You’re my only friend diary.

Love Fae

Dear diary.                              June 12, 2000                                                                               

It’s almost Father’s Day and I’m so excited we get to see dad and mom the whole day! They said supervised visit but that’s OK I get to see them! I’ll tell you later about it I got to go get my dress on so I can be pretty for today!

Bye!

Love Fae

Dear diary.                              July 22, 2000                                                                          

Yesterday was not fun! we saw mommy and daddy and they cried so much. I miss them a lot. When I got home I asked Sandy when I get to go home and she said to ask my social worker so I called Joanne and she said I have racked up frequent Whiner miles. Just want my mommy.

Bye

Love Fae 

Dear diary                                Sept 7, 2000

It’s a new year at school and I’m glad I can at least go back to my friends at school and my favourite teacher, mrs. k in music, and practice in the library. I want to be a singer I think when I grow up. 

Everything is different but at least school is the same. Tyler is still a dork and we still fight every day. He pulls my hair a lot and runs away so I always chase him. But I have to go to bed now, night diary!

Love Fae

Dear diary.                                Oct 1, 2001

It’s moms birthday today but we don’t get to see her. Terri told sandy I stole her book but I didn’t. So Sandy said since I lied and I stole I can’t go to moms birthday. I hate my sister. She lied and she gets to see mom and dad. I didn’t and I have to stay in this place. I just want to go home. Terri can stay here since Sandy likes her so much.

Love Fae

Dear diary.                                Dec 18, 2000

Tomorrow is dads birthday. I want to go home. I miss mom and dad a lot. Someday we will go home they say. They lie a lot. Everyone lies a lot here. It’s not ok. I’m not safe. They don’t love me they don’t even care when Caroline beats me up or steals my things. She even told sandy I stole the dumb makeup from the shelf. I didn’t take it. Everyone blames me But I got to go, sandys yelling again

Love Fae

Dear diary.                                Jan 25, 2001                                                         

I’m sorry I haven’t wrote lately. A lot has happened. We’re still in foster care. It’s my birthday today and they got me dresses and pants and a haircut and Sandy even gave me some of the Mary Kay she sells. I don’t care I still hate Sandy and John and Joanne and my foster sisters and everybody. I still miss uncle Monty and I still want my mom and dad. I don’t think they’ll ever let me go home. I just want to die happy birthday to me.

Fae

Dear diary                                   Sept 7, 2001                                                       

We went back to school this week and I got to go to a new school and my sister goes to a different one because our old school is on the other side of town from where we live now. It’s scary at the new school and I don’t know anyone but there’s a boy in my class named Kalub who is really nice to me. He looks funny but I don’t care I’m happy I have a new friend maybe

Love Fae

Dear diary.                                Dec 10, 2001

I almost did something bad today. I climbed to the very top of our school, and climbed on the fence that goes up the fire stairs to the very top of the whole building. I was going to be with Monty. I wanted to not hurt anymore. But K man stopped me. He’s scared of climbing fences but he climbed all the way to the top and told me if I jumped he would too. I didn’t want him to jump because of me so I stayed and we climbed down and didn’t tell anyone. But I have to go do homework, Christmas break is starting soon so we have a big test. 

Love Fae

Dear diary                                 July 15, 2001                                                         

A lot happened! I finally get to go home now. Joanne got fired and Sandy and John’s home got shut down. Sandy threw me down the stairs and burned my head with a iron and John kicked my dog rusty hard because it coughed a lot because he was old. I missed my birthday because I pushed Caroline my biggest foster sister because she told me nobody loved me anymore. Joanne finally told mom and dad she should have never taken us from home and she was sorry. Sorry doesn’t take all this back. Sorry doesn’t bring back my uncle or my dog Or my childhood. Sorry doesn’t fix all the things she did. Sorry doesn’t give me my home back. I hate her and I’m glad she got fired. I’ll write you again and tell you what it’s like when I’m finally HOME 

Love Fae

Dear diary                                 Aug 10,2002                                                        

It’s weird being home. We’ve been home for two weeks and it’s not like Sandy’s at all. Terri cried because she had to do the dishes at Sandys, but here we don’t have to anything! No chores! It’s so weird being at mom and dads place again, but just in time! I had my first period and am so glad Sandy wasn’t here to yell at me for messing up my sheets. Kaleb is allowed to come over whenever I want and we go for walks by ourself down to the park and to the fort in the woods by buttertubs marsh. I like him a lot.

Love Fae