I Wish You Love.

Should I betray you? I don’t think I can.

Giving up our friendship just to get a win?

They say friendship doesn’t last forever

But somehow I thought we would always be together.

Will I be the break of our long built friendship?

I always knew I sang better, I don’t mean to brag but I knew it once I opened my lips.

My dream, my life. My voice is all I can provide.

But I want you by my side…

Music brought us together

Will it divide us…forever?

We made a promise, hoping our friendship will prevail.

“If one of us fails, we both fail”

But why did I have to be chosen?

Why did I stand frozen,

when they asked me to choose between my friendship or my dream?

This question is probably easy to you it may seem.

But to me I am dying, my heart is hammering,

my face is covered in sweat.

This is like choosing life or death

I watch my friend sing her heart out

I hear her off tune notes

But I smile and nod as I give her a couple of my advice-ful quotes

I can’t tell her.

It will crush her.

But I should tell her, I’m not a liar.

The hardest part was calling out your name.

You smiled, its such a shame.

I told you everything, and I watched your eyes fill

I waited for them to spill

but you wiped them away and just like that

She decided we should quit and my heart went flat.

I smiled as I felt the rock of guilt lift off my chest.

But I laid there blood slipping out my veins

We packed our clothes like every other said

you remained straight faced as my eyes were glossy red

Why did you have to have the same dream as me?

If only you were born with a tone as horrid, I would be free.

But such is reality,

the crusher of dreams.

…

You left somewhere, to a place unknown

Tell me, why aren’t you answering your phone?

I am not in the mood

but let me once again, go the extra measure for you.

The hallways are empty and cold

I pass a mirror, my eyes reveal bags underneath. I never thought I’d leave here looking so old.

The only sound is my shoes squeaking the tiles

and murmurs coming from the room filled with files.

Why do I hear a familiar voice?

Why does that voice sound like yours, why does it rejoice?

We are leaving, our train leaves at five,

why are you talking to the judges with the world in your eyes.

Why are you hugging them with the biggest smile

We are leaving, our train leaves at five

My eyes are dull filled with death, why does yours look alive!

We are leaving, our train leaves at five!

If I die, you die. We were both supposed to die!

We are leaving, our train leaves at five!

No.

I am leaving, your life starts at five.

…

You come out of the room, judges surround you.

You look horrified. Ouu

You look like you want to apologize.

Small in size, eyes viciously hiding. Were you always like this?

I gave up this opportunity for our friendship

But now I find out you were given the same tip.

And you chose your dream.

Over me.

It sounds right but,

but let me once again, go the extra measure for you.

Well then, I guess I will be at home the next time I sing.

Embarrassing.

My head bounces as the train grooves

I haven’t made any moves

My eyes blink as I leave without you

I would have been proud of you.

If you hadn’t tricked me.

All I asked for was honesty

If you had told me you were chosen I would have willingly went home

but you tricked me with those tears.

Tears.

I wonder when you started thinking of this betrayal

When?

All your life.

I stuff my hands in my pockets, the sweater you gave me

A paper comes out with my hand

A note from you

An explanation? Lets hope you say what’s true.

…

Letter from "Friend"

I knew.

I knew all along,

Whenever we sang our song.

You were too soft

But even being fragile comes with a cost

You were like a dove, white on the inside, innocent.

You made it easy, thinking of this plan didn’t cost me a cent.

I knew you were chosen with me, the judges couldn’t fool me.

Me? over you? Was a joke.

So I hid under my cloak…

Waiting for you to spill.

You watched my forceful fake tears fill my eyes.

That’s all it took for you to take my lies.

Unlike you, I refuse to give up my dreams for you.

Friendship to me is a stepping stool to my dreams in the sky that shines blue

In other words. I used you.

Don’t misunderstand.

I love you, you have to understand.

I am not ashamed of crushing you to reach the top

I know your sad. Or mad, I won’t tell you to stop.

Unlike you, I am not afraid of losing you…

because there will always be another…

another bestfriend. And we will be bestfriends “forever”

You see, Forever is an unforeseen future, an unforeseen end

Our forever has come, “friend”

While you chose me, I chose myself.

I must sound like a psycho.

But you know, I’m not one to lie. Oh…

Wait. Never mind.

Anyways. My future starts at five

This is Goodbye.

…

I close your letter,

I press my head against the seat feeling the day

You didn’t let personal feelings get in the way.

Although there is a better way to go about it…than lying and tricking.

I am sighing.

Unlike me, you don’t settle in guilt

Your decisions are forced so your flower stands tall never wilting.

But your a rose,

you wrap around others with your thorns until their death is close.

You suck the life

so that you can reach the top.

Why not live in harmony?

If I didn’t get it then maybe it wasn’t for me in the first place.

I will handle this pain with grace.

These days I happen to remember– Do you remember our song?

The song we loved most of all?

Though you did me wrong

Here is our favorite song

I sing to you one last time.

I wish you blue birds in the spring.

To give you heart a song to sing..

And then a kiss but more than this…

I wish you love.

And in July a lemonade

To cool you in a leafy glade

I wish you health, and more than wealth,

I wish you love

My breaking heart and I agree

That you and I could never be

So, with my best, my very best

I set you free

I wish you shelter from the storm

A cozy fire to keep you warm

But most of all, when snowflakes fall

I wish you love.

For love is the only thing I can give you,

instead of hate, I will love.

To my bestfriend.

This is indeed the end.