Cedar

I walk into the deep forest covered by a massacre of trees. Sometimes I just like to think in silence, and tune the sounds of others. Sigh and I kept walking and thinking. The path was long and narrow, and naked trees waft in the air. It was the afternoon, and I still couldn’t keep up with my schoolwork. And I kept checking the trees just to make sure if they had cedar but fate is not as faithful.

School was hard for me today, they gave us weekend homework for apparently disrupting our teacher, Mr. Lance. Though, I did nothing but sit there in silence with my work. I still got the homework, and I blame it 100% on my classmates. The weekend homework is not as bad as it sounds, but I still have stacks of paper piled up on my study desk. I couldn’t blame myself but at the same time I did. Though, ever since I broke up with Luke, I’ve been distant from everyone since. Way More distant. Aliyah and Helen were probably concerned for me, but I hope they heard. And I don’t know if they will react with Guys!! Julia and Luke broke up! Did you hear? I don’t even know how they will react.

Whoosh, the wind growing colder and breezier. The color of blue signaled a lake. I peered down, staring at the bizarre waves that flowed throughout the rocky landscape on the left. I held my breath tight and felt the sensational urge, but before I took action. I thought about my family first, Melissa, and Alan. They wouldn’t care would they? What about my friends?

A tear sprang down my cheek, and I felt the tingling chills. sniffles Why am I doing this even? No… it’s hopeless. But before I could, I tried to smell the familiar scent of cedar, the fresh, spicy, woody aroma. But I couldn’t. There’s no going back. The air surrounding me was slow. Time stopped. Even more cries of relief came, and the spiky sensations reaching down to my head, to my bare foot. WHOOSH I barely caught my breath, and the sudden familiarity of the scent filled my nose with great pleasure. He yelled, “Julia. What on earth do you think you’re doing?!” And I yet refused to answer, and instead I gazed down at the long lake waters.

Luke said, “Hey… answer me. Right now, alright? Please, Julia forgive me. I didn’t realize it, okay?”

On the outside, I said, “…”

I didn’t want to say anything because it would make it seem unusual. It was clear, he liked another person and he only wanted to see me as a friend. But I’m definitely done with him, he’s not my type, not my kind, not even my chosen one. And…

His face was centimeters away from my shocked outer face. He winked, and I wheezed. “Watch it. I don’t need your help either way.”

He asked, “What if I need your help?”

Confused, but then replied, “What do you mean? Luke.”

“Don’t say my name like that. You’ve changed so much, but you know I could’ve just avoided you and left you by yourself but you see…” He trailed off.

“So, you do know what happened, right? You’re way more important than me, Luke. People know you way better, they care about you, unlike me. A rat who’s deserted that everyone steps on.” I demanded, “Not even my parents care, they’ve just letted me run off and don’t even love me. My life is worse than it already is, and you’ve ruined it even more.”

“I’m sorry. Julia. I know that you have been through a lot, but as I said, I need help. Really need it.” Luke insisted. “Also, don’t do that anymore, you’re already scary enough.”

“What, help? And I don’t care about you, I control myself. You don’t control me.” She countered.

A straight slap across me, crossed, as I had said it. I cursed at him, and got closer to the ledge.

“If, you dare to come any closer. I will bring you down with me.” I threatened.

”Julia, stop it. Now. You can’t just do this, Julia, you have a family, you have friends. And— you have a nice boy friend here…?” Luke fret.

I cleared my throat as I winced, “We broke up, remember? Maybe, use that big brain up there.” I joked. Then, I got even closer to the end of the large rock overlooking the blue. I could see my escape from here, it was somehow reliving. From all this pain, misery, and despair. I wouldn’t have to deal with him anymore. Or my family. My annoying bullies. My whole life.

Luke shivered, “Hey now. Don’t— Don’t even think about it. I know what you’re thinking.” And then took a step forward.

“I said, not to go forward. Luke.” Frightened, by his tone.

I waited a few moments, and I jumped. Leaping into the unknown soothingly lake as Luke tried to catch me before I could do so. My stomach whirled inside. Head was aching with the gravity. And most importantly, I felt my heart stop for a second, and it came back. Cough Adrenaline was kicking, and I was almost there by a yard down.

SPLASH! The unexpectedly water level was high, the lake deeper than it looked. Which was an advantage. I chuckled a little, at it. Holding in the tight breaths of my lungs, the feeling of eyes burning, and my nostrils flaring with pain. The lake had a lot of scraps in it, and I examined all of it. But the thing is, where was Luke? Also didn’t he come down? He couldn’t leave me, possibly?

‘’Curiosity sparked the wonder out of me, I focused on the colors of the blurs on my POV. It looked like the car windows, when it gets washed and wiped after. But with the searing pain, I knew I had to keep it in. Don’t stop. Don’t give up.

Until, I smelt the cedar trees. Wait, was there cedar trees? And a gripping hand grabbed me so hard, my forearm ached in the light pain.

(To be Continued).

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Hope you enjoyed the story so far! I just brainstormed in my head, so if there are any problems, let me know!