“911, what is your emergency?”
“Help me. My husband has been shot. Please help me.”
The 911 operator was very calm and patient with me. It took a while for us to get all the information sorted out. I gave her my name and address, then explained that I had come home and my husband was lying on the bedroom floor.
“Is he breathing?”
“I don’t think so. Please help me.”
“OK, Ma’am, there is an ambulance on its way.”
“No, wait, they can’t get in.”
“Can you open the door for them, Ma’am?”
“No, I’m locked in the bedroom.”
Well, that took some explaining. I told it to her again. It seemed like the third or fourth time, so I was getting good at repeating myself.
“I came home, and I heard a noise from the bedroom. I came upstairs to find out what was happening, and my husband was lying on the floor. I went to see what I could do, and then the door closed and locked behind me. Someone must have been in here with him.”
“Is the front door open?”
“I don’t know. I closed it behind me, I think, but I don’t know what this other man did. They need to force it open if it’s locked. Then they need to force the bedroom door as well.”
“Who was this other man, Ma’am? Do you know him?”
I was trying very hard to keep calm. Bill was lying on the carpet, not breathing. And not really bleeding, either. Could this woman not listen when I told her the first time?
“I didn’t see him. I saw my husband lying on the floor. I was trying to rouse him when the door locked behind me. It could have been anyone.”
“Who shot your husband?”
“I don’t know. He had been shot when I got here. I don’t see a gun anywhere. Please, send help!”
“OK, Ma’am, just stay calm and wait. An ambulance and the police are on their way over. I’ll stay on the line with you until they arrive. Please check your husband again. Can you see any sign of a pulse or breathing?”
It seemed like forever before the ambulance arrived. I heard them ring the doorbell and knock on the door. I yelled out to them to come in and come upstairs. I don’t think they heard me.
“911 operator, did you tell them to force their way in if necessary? They seem to be waiting for someone to let them in.”
The 911 operator muttered under her breath, then said “Hold on, Ma’am. Just stay calm.”
If I heard the phrase “just stay calm” one more time, I’d let her know just how not calm I actually was.
Finally, I heard the door downstairs open. I called out to guide them to the master bedroom. And then they were there.
By the time the police arrived, I was sitting in a chair and the nice EMT was letting me breathe oxygen. Bill was still lying on the floor.
Then I told the story again. I remembered when my children were young, and we had the same conversation over and over. I had survived that. I could deal with this.
“Where is the gun?”
I looked at the officer blankly. “What gun?”
He sighed. Apparently, I was not being helpful. Probably something to do with the dead body on the floor.
“Your husband was shot. Where is the gun?”
“How would I know? If it’s not here, he must have taken it with him.”
“He?”
“The person who locked me in here. The person who shot my husband. Are you writing this down?”
Yes, I was getting a little testy. It had been a hell of a day.
“Do you have any guns in the house?”
Finally, a sensible question. “Yes, there’s one in the bedside table. On his side – the left side, I mean.”
The officer walked over to the bedside table. Looked at me for confirmation, then opened the drawer with his pen. Ah, yes…fingerprints.
He rifled through the items in the drawer, then said “There’s no gun in here. Would it have been moved?”
I shook my head. The gun was always there. Bill kept it there in case of burglars.
“Do you have any documentation for this gun? Do you know its make or any other details?”
I stared at him. Did he think a stranger had come into the house, found the gun in the bedroom and then killed Bill with it? That really didn’t seem very likely to me, but I’m not a cop. Maybe this sort of thing happens all the time in Dallas.
“It’s a handgun. Not a revolver. An automatic? Bill probably has some information filed away with all our other papers.”
“We don’t need it right now, but if you could bring it to the station tomorrow, that would be helpful.” Officer Jensen seemed to have accepted that I wasn’t going to magically produce a receipt for a gun that I had rarely seen and had no part in buying.
“Did you open or close any windows and doors when you came in? Closets, bathroom, anything?”
I thought about that. “No, I didn’t touch anything except for Bill. Oh, and I checked the door to see if it was really locked. Then I called 911.”
Jensen nodded thoughtfully. “So the windows were all closed. And you didn’t go into the bathroom at all?”
“Why would I – oh. Oh no!” The idea of the bathroom suddenly caused my mouth to flood with saliva. “I’m going to – ”
I ran into the bathroom, pushing a surprised officer out of my way, and vomited into the basin. I couldn’t hold it long enough to get to the toilet. With my head still hanging over the sink, I ran cold water and splashed it over my hands and face.
Jensen had followed me into the bathroom, and he wasn’t happy. They hadn’t finished looking through the crime scene, and my lack of control had interfered with his evidence. “You’d better come to the station with me. We still have things to do here.”
In the car, he asked me for details of the time I came home, where I had been, what my husband had been doing. He told me the police were doing a thorough search of the bedroom, bathroom, rest of the house, and the outside, in case the killer had thrown the gun out of the window. I hadn’t thought of that. It’s Texas, it’s a hundred degrees out there – no sane person would open a window in the middle of the day. He pointed out that the killer could have opened the window, tossed the gun out, then closed it before I came home. Or, I suppose, he could have simply taken it with him.
At the police station, we sat in a private room and he gave me a cup of coffee before we started work on my statement. To help me relax, he talked about my family while I slowly came back to life.
“How old are your children?”
“The youngest, Danny, is 19. He’s away studying in Paris. The middle, Marianne, is 22 and she got married a year ago. They live in Nashville now. The eldest is Troy, and we don’t see too much of him. He and his Dad had a big fight about five years ago and he left.”
“How old is Troy now? And do you know where he lives?”
I didn’t want to talk about this. Somehow it was more personal than Bill’s death. “He’s 26 now. He’s phoned me a couple of times, but he doesn’t speak to Bill. I think he was in New York last time I spoke to him.”
Jensen went “Hmm.” Then he sat up straight, and said “Are you ready to start on your statement now?”
I nodded, and he made a show of starting a recording. I’ve seen enough documentaries to expect that everything in this room was recorded anyway.
With his prompting, I started to dictate a statement. The finished version was simple.
“I went out shopping at 11 a.m. on Saturday May 3rd 2025 and left my husband Bill at home watching a movie on television. I came home from shopping at around 4 p.m. The front door was unlocked. We normally keep it unlocked during the day when someone is home. I had set down my purchases in the kitchen when I heard a bang from upstairs. I called out to Bill, but he didn’t reply, so I went upstairs to investigate.
“In the master bedroom, I saw Bill lying on the floor. I ran to him to see if he was OK. He was not moving. As I tried to wake him, I heard the door close and lock behind me. I tried to open the door, but it didn’t budge. Then I called 911. Bill had blood on his chest, and he did not seem to be breathing. No one else lives or works in the house.
“My children, Troy, Marianne and Danny, have all grown up and left home. I have a cleaner who visits on Monday and Thursday during the week. I am not aware of anyone who had a grudge against Bill or me. He did not indicate that he was expecting any visitors. We live a very quiet life.”
Once I had reviewed and signed the statement, Jensen offered me another cup of coffee. I was calmer now, but I was starting to be overwhelmed by the tasks I needed to do. He went through other things he needed to know, like contact information for the children. I even had a number for Troy, although I never called him.
He asked me if I had any relatives or close friends nearby that I could stay with. I could hardly sleep in the room where my husband had just been murdered. Both Bill and I were only children with no living parents. There was no one in Dallas I could think of. I said I’d go and stay with Marianne and Tyler in Nashville, but he nixed that. With a murder investigation going on, they needed me to stay in town. So, I decided to stay in a hotel. The Renaissance was close to home.
“Do you need to collect anything from home? Clothes, makeup, or anything? I can send an officer with you.”
I shuddered. “No, I can buy whatever I need for the next few days. But I do need to pick up my car. Can someone drive me to the house?”
Once I was settled into a comfortable hotel room and had an open bottle of wine in front of me, I started to call my children. They needed to hear the news and know that I was OK. I was hoping the police would contact them first. I didn’t know how well I would handle telling them the news. It was the middle of the night in Paris, so I decided to wait until tomorrow to call Danny. Troy would be the easiest to call – he wouldn’t be upset, just surprised to hear from me.
“Troy? It’s Mom here. Are you all right?”
“Mom? Has something happened? I’m fine, just about to go out.”
“Bill is dead. I know you and he didn’t have anything to do with each other. But when I came home this afternoon, someone had shot him.”
There was a long silence.
“Wow. We didn’t get on, but…wow. How are you doing? Did you call the police?”
“Yes, honey, of course I called the police. They’ve opened a murder investigation. I’m staying in a hotel for now. They don’t want me to leave town.”
“Why not? Do they suspect you? Do you have a lawyer?”
I laughed at his concern. His life now was clearly very different from mine. “No, I’m not a suspect. But I did find the body,” I gulped over that phrase, “so I am a witness, even though I didn’t see who shot him.”
Very carefully, Troy said “Mom, I know that all was not well with your marriage. He had women on the side, and he put the lock on the outside of your bedroom door. I’m not a complete idiot, and the police aren’t either. Be careful what you say to them, and get a lawyer, please.”
I was so used to that damn lock that it seemed normal to me. The police hadn’t even asked me about it. Of course they’d noticed – I was locked in the room when the ambulance arrived.
“You’re right, Troy, thank you. I’m sorry you were aware of all that. I tried to keep it from you all. Eventually, the lock and his adventures will come up. I’ll find a lawyer and explain about the marriage.” I teared up, finally understanding the reason why Troy had stayed away. “I am so sorry. I failed as a wife and as a mother.”
Troy’s voice was very stern. Perhaps he did take after Bill. “Just because he failed as a husband doesn’t mean you failed as a wife, Mom. Don’t even think that. Do you want me to come to Dallas to be with you?”
Now the tears fell. I had someone who would look after me. “Would you, Troy? I need someone to lean on while we go through this. I’m OK for a day or two, but if you can get here in a week or so, that would really help.”
“Sure, Mom. Let me make a couple of arrangements, and I’ll be on my way. Have a good cry, take care of yourself. I’ll call you once I know when I’ll get there.”
After I hung up, I did cry. And I finished the bottle of wine. I’d call Marianne in the morning.
I talked to the police many times over the next few days. As Troy said, they wanted to know about the lock on the bedroom door. They had heard about his mistresses and call girls, and they had been told that he was violent with them. They wanted to know about our finances. They had searched the house and grounds thoroughly but hadn’t found the gun. My lawyer had patiently sat by me through the conversations. Popular opinion in the media said that one of the women had turned on him and killed him. It seemed like a possibility.
Around noon on Tuesday, I ventured out for lunch at a busy downtown sandwich store. A hard-faced young woman picked up a sandwich and asked if she could share my table. I moved to make more space for her. After a few minutes, she said “The gun is gone for good. It’s in cement.”
I nodded, without making eye contact. “I want you to know how grateful I am. If you hadn’t come in, I’d be under arrest by now. Why did you help me?”
She raised her eyebrows. “He was a piece of shit. I had an appointment with him. Then I saw you looking like a deer in the headlights, with the gun in your hand. I can’t imagine what it was like being married to him.”
A complete stranger to me, she had calmly taken the gun from me, wiped the handle of the bedside table drawer, given me instructions, then headed out, locking me in the bedroom. I owed her so much. Blanche DuBois said it best: the kindness of strangers.
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