Brelunners

Two days five hours three minutes and 25 seconds is not enough time and every second is one second less. Dammit, they same men artist in touch with their emotions as women, but women are more aggressive and smash rooms. What’s my gender? That’s the least of my worries right now if I don’t find or get that amount of money in two days five hours, etc.. I’m on the street. Right now I’m eating brelunners. Maybe you’ve never heard of brelunners. It’s what broke people eat and maybe you’ve never been broke even even if you have been broke maybe you called it something else

So here you go, Webster, OED, anyone else who gives a fuck. Brelunner: Noun singular (can be made plural (Brelunners): a meal one eats that is a combination of breakfast, lunch, and dinner generally made of less expensive items in order to sustain oneself when one is short of money. Use in a sentence: Our blelunner today is day old bread from Jimmy John’s in the meat they were about to throw away at Walmart because it was about to expire. It is an on urban dictionary yet, but may be soon.

Help I can’t find rent. I’ll be eating shit from the garbage can, which’d probably be more filling than brelunner. I know I gotta get a job and I’ve been looking for jobs but the economy sucks. It ain’t nobody hiring. Any job they are hiring for won’t give me the money in two days five hours two minutes and 25 seconds. Time passes in considering it’s winter in George, Washington I’ll be passing on two if I don’t get rent. I asked my friends, social services, etc. what to do and they said to call 211 and I did that and they said they can’t do shit until I get an eviction notice. Well I got the eviction notice and they’re working on it. People donate to them to help people like me, but ain’t sure it’s gonna come in time. Why winter? It is summer. They be more jobs like amusement parks maybe learn to teach summer school or substitute teach summer school. I go to church and be praying for some help even ask them for donations to me even though churches ask me for donations, but I made deposits now I wanna make withdrawal but that I know it works and I knew that they gave me some canned food which I need, but only lasts me one day maybe I’ll go back there and ask for more food so I don’t have to stay on brelunners. There’s a Book the social workers recalled food or heat. I haven’t had heat for months, but the walls provides in heat. Suppose I can make a fire outside with something I got, but then the fire department will come put it out aren’t they heroes? They’re putting out fires so we can freeze to death.

See them rich people wasting money on things like lotto tickets, cigarettes new games for the game consoles. How am I gonna survive? If I don’t have four walls around me where am I gonna sleep at night without being arrested for loitering? I tried calling homeless shelters, but they’re all full with waiting lists. If I don’t have a home, I won’t have a phone, but I’m behind on the phone bill anyway.

I could try to buy a lotto ticket or a scratch and win see if they would do any good for probably throwing my money in the trashcan. There’s a better chance of me being struck by lightning. At least there’ll be a chance. There’s a parable, but this man who keeps praying to God please God let me win the lottery please God let me win the lottery any years of voice buy a lottery ticket, but I think that might be a metaphor not literally about the lotto. I’m not sure. All I know is my time running out and I gotta think of something quick or I’ll be on the street. I don’t even have a cup to ask for coins with can’t even buy anything with coins anymore anyway. Maybe get on some game show and win money. That way there’s a waitlist for game shows and you gotta get online and I don’t have a way to get to the library to take the online test and even if I did, how would they contact me? They’re not gonna contact me within. Two days four hours and 25 minutes. No way maybe United Way will come through for me. I got the eviction notice now so I can go to them and figure it out, but they can help me figure it out. They can help me postpone it until I figure it out or I can get a trial or something and they gotta provide me with an attorney, but I’m not being arrested on being evicted.

Why don’t they say that we gotta write to an attorney will be provided for me for an eviction for housing will be provided for me. If I can’t afford it. I need housing. I don’t need an attorney. This country doesn’t make any sense. Maybe I would say with a friend and my friends are broke as I am. They can’t afford me they can barely afford themselves. I’m totally fucked in a bad way. Maybe be a prostitute on the street to see if I get money that way. Gotta watch out for undercover cops. Look for young morons who are horny. Well fuck for Food. That would be a great sign. Don’t know how I get a sign or a cup or anything even don’t know what I’ll do. I’m praying Jesus.

Two days one and a half hours I need somewhere to stay that I can afford. I already had my brelunner today and I feel the stomach pain. Ignore it. Distract myself. The panel still be there if I’m homeless

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They come and throw me out they’re gonna throw away my furniture the little I have, any clothes I still got in there maybe should’ve sold those. But I’ll walk out on the street me a little Finn lady and I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I wore the sweatshirt I had to try to help but it’s not helping my hands or my feet. I pray to God for help to let me be back at my apartment with a little I have and a look up to the sky and it starts to rain and then it starts to snow