STRANGER BECOMES STRANGER

It’s interesting to think about how we make people who used to be everything into nothing again. How we learn to forget. How we force to forget .I will tell you some reasons why most of us are forced to encounter such a stage.

Let me share my story.We were colleagues working in different department’s of the same organisation. There was an instant attraction to each other, I felt alive being around her, I could be myself around and not worry about being judged, told her anything & everything!

After a few month’s of getting know each other, we started dating, no one at office had the slightest idea! Almost, everyday after office we would chose a place to hangout and go there and then return home and text each other throughout the night! Went for movies, shopping and what not. We had become BEST FRIENDS and such a wonderful feeling it was, I always made sure I kept her happy and brought a smile to her face. Yes, we had our fights but we used to sort them out as well.

And then my internship got over and I had to leave to prepare for my exams, we couldn’t meet each other for sometime at least. I had to stop using my smartphone to focus on my exam preparation.

We used to text each other a little, 3.5 months later she decided to break-up which I was not ready for at that moment but was expecting and I respected her decision. I started to focus my energy on my studies, but I missed her so much more than ever she meant the world to me and I couldn’t stay without speaking to her.

2 weeks after the break-up, I couldn’t take it anymore and I sent her a huge email of our time together and wishing her good luck, that night I get a call from her which I didn’t take. I called her the next, asking her what do you want? Whatever I had to say I have said it in my email to which she said that she missed me so much and was going crazy and that she wanted me back in her life!!!I couldn’t believe it and I asked her if she was sure about it and she said yes and that it will never happen again, I was over the moon I wanted to meet her so badly and hug her but these damn exams wouldn’t let me.

So things were back to normal and I got back to my preparation but that spark was slowly going…almost a month later we had a small fight where I was very rude and I felt very bad about it the next day and I apologized. That evening she sends me a text “I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE”, the world had come to a stand-still for me.. I again respected her decision and wished her luck but this time I couldn’t focus on my studies as I kept blaming myself cause I was rude to her, deep-down I was hoping after 2 weeks maybe she will call me and everything will okay? How could she do this to me, when she knows how much clearing the exams meant to me?

Well nothing of sort at that happened, I was devastated and I wanted to call and speak to her ask her how she is? But couldn’t…It so happened that I had to go to office and there she was, we met each other later in the evening and she was not ready to even look me in the eye, not ready to even sit next to me (awesome feeling).. I wanted to hear it from her mouth so I asked her look me in the face and tell me that you DON’T LOVE ME?!?!? She took a few seconds, and told it without a second thought! Where was that person whom I loved? my best-friend? just a nice friendly conversation would have sufficed but she explained in detail how she had moved on and how removed each and every thought of mine! GREAT!And I was also told that the reason she broke it off was cause her parents were searching a guy for her and that we would never be accepted, I thought your marriage will happen after 1.5 years couldn’t you wait a few months till my exams finish and then break it off but no she turned out to be just as selfish as everyone in the world is these days.

1 month to go for the exams and I had lost all interest in the exam, had lost all the focus, the one person who used to motivate me was not in my life anymore… it was so unfair I felt.

Exams came and I just went through the motions..1 week after the exams ..She called me, by then I had accepted and decided that I should respect her decision, I badly wanted her to stay in my life. We spoke for like 30 mins and chatted for a couple of hours and decided to be friends and never to discuss our past. I was so happy. A mutual friend of ours had invited us for a function, I was hesitant to go there as I knew even she will be there and deep inside I was still mad at her for being so selfish but she asked me to come and I told her I will try to be there.

Just few days before the that function, she sends me a mail telling me that the real reason she broke off is because of some guy (a stranger who she met somewhere, they exchanged numbers - became friends - apparently he proposed - made her realise a lot of things etc ) and she didn’t want to be my friend cause IT MADE HER FEEL GUILTY. I couldn’t believe what I was reading, now I am not a violent guy and I never meant any harm to that guy who she met n all, I just wanted to know his name and wanted to see him but she wouldn’t tell me and she said she never will. I wanted to know to see if she ends up marrying him or not anyways I begged to not stop talking to me but she said even if she does it will be “just for my sake” .I told her don’t take that trouble I don’t need it, out of pity or something she wanted to do something for me one last time and meet me to which I declined.

Then I see her uploading pics on social networking sites going to different places almost every alternate with another guy friend of mine, some were places which we had been together. WOW, another AWESOME FEELING! I was happy that she was happy but so angry and jealous as well, that she had moved on but I had not!

And then came the function day, I had already given my word to the host that I will be there.. I wanted to avoid her at all costs so I decided to go very early leave before she comes there. But call it filmy or whatever, as I am leaving the place I see her sitting pillion on the bike with that guy friend of mine, gets down and walks towards me smiling at me as though nothing has happened and she could do no wrong. Maybe I should have smiled back and left graciously but I couldn’t fake it as she was passing by without even making eye contact I turned around and she just walked by and left.

2 people who couldn’t take their eyes off each other and couldn’t be without talking to each other had suddenly became strangers, my world had turned upside down!

Time never waits. Actually there is no time there is only us. Reality is I was happy for the moments we had. The STORY STARTED WITH A STRANGER AND ENDED BECOMING ONE.