All Is Wrong

The following contains, themes and mentions of mental health.

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They’ve sewn my heart together,

But it is all a lie,

Can you not see?

The stitches are bare,

For all to see,

I am nothing,

Can’t you see?

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Step back,

One, two, three

Quick, make an excuse,

All is fine,

Oh, such a pretty lie.

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They’ve fixed my eyes,

Yet my vision is blurry,

There is nothing to see,

Nothing to do,

I am nothing,

Why can’t you see?

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Fixed my jaw,

But the words,

No longer come out of me,

They are strapped up,

Inside of me,

I am nothing more,

Why won’t you see that?!

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They’ve fixed every part of me,

At least that’s what they’ve told me.

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Look what I have,

Stitches and scars,

It is all a lie.

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They’ve sewn my heart,

My chest even has a scar,

But I break and break,

Until nothing is here,

Just a hole,

In my chest.

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Haven’t I told you?

I am nothing more.

I am broken,

I am scarred,

Why can’t you see?

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They’ve fixed my eyes,

But all of it is a lie,

Darkness is all I find.

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They’ve straightened my jaw,

But it is all a lie,

See my mouth,

Watch it move,

Yet, hear no words.

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Look at me!

Watch me breathe!

Watch me fall!

Watch me dance!

Watch me break!

Look at me!

See what I am!

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I am fragile,

Just look at my thorns.

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I am fine,

Why won’t you just let me be?

Go away!

There is nothing to see!

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A broken heart,

Shattered and torn,

Broken eyes,

Cut and blurred,

Broken jaw,

Stretched and curved.

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Look at me!

See, I am not whole,

I need something,

To fill this hole.

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I am not fixed,

Not even close,

Here on this earth,

I trip, and I fall,

I breathe, and I sink

Look at me,

I am nothing more.

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Look at me!

Watch as I wither,

For nothing in this world,

Can make me ever feel whole.

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I am nothing,

Why can’t you see?

There is nothing more of me.

Just leave me here,

For all to see.

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I am alone,

Truly it is so,

Nothing in this world,

Will ever, ever make me whole.

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Perhaps now,

My tears will fill this,

Very endless hole.

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I am stricken,

My breath,

It is no longer my own.

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I am stolen,

Watch me move,

Yet it is not my own.

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I am broken,

Nothing more.

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I walk and walk,

Until I slip to the floor,

Here I lie,

Won’t you just let me die?

Here in this place.

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But here you are,

So full of light,

But my smile cannot hide,

This endless emptiness.

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I am nothing,

They have all told me so,

Why do you try?

There’s nothing to fix this hole.

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Don’t you bother,

I’ll never be whole.

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You say you are near,

But my heart will not follow,

I am stuck,

In this muddle.

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I am broken,

I am drained,

Barely any of me is left.

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I am nothing,

Why don’t you believe me?

There is nothing to save me.

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You have given me everything,

Yet I can not give all of me,

I am sorry, truly so.

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God, will you wait for me?

My light has dimmed,

I am worn,

I am weary.

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God, just give up on me.

I am too broken,

Matted and bruised,

Everyone sees it too,

So, why not you?

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Look here down at me,

I am nothing,

Why haven’t you given up on me?

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I walk, and I walk,

But all I feel is empty,

I turn to you full of nothing,

Just an endless void,

In my heart,

Here it is,

For all to see.

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Show me how to be,

I feel not alive,

I am dead inside,

Have the darkness let me be.

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All is a lie,

There is nothing for me.

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It is wrong,

There is no hope for me,

I am nothing,

Why can’t you see?

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See right here,

In my chest,

The hole they told me

They fixed up,

It is still here inside.

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With nothing to fill,

Soon my blood will run dry,

I’ll be nothing more,

I may be just barely alive.

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Look at me,

Watch my eyes,

Bruised and blurred

Can’t you see?

What is wrong with me?

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I am blind,

There is no light,

All is right,

All is wrong,

What is wrong?

I am blind,

Can’t you see?

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Here I am,

My speech is gone,

Nothing to say,

Nothing to do.

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I am just here,

That will just do.

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Gouge out my eyes!

Snap my jaw!

How about my heart?!

Rip it out!

Take it apart!

Take it all!

I don’t need it now!

Leave me dry!

I am nothing now!

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Here I sleep,

I am nothing more,

No point, no nothing,

No, not anymore.

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Here I lay to rest,

Oh, come take me, Death!

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I open my eyes,

There is light to see,

How can it be?

My eyes are new!

My heart and jaw too!

I am made new!

Look at me, now!

I am brand new!

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Not broken and bruised,

I am beautiful, loved,

Oh, I am brand new!

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Here I stand at the edge,

I am here, yes, I am.

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The darkness has lied,

I am brand new!

Look at me!

Let us celebrate!

Of the Christ on the cross!

Who shed his blood,

To make me brand new!

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Wash off these tears,

I am brand new!

My savior has saved me.

I am new!

How beautiful!

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He has sewn me up,

Wash off the mud,

And held me close.

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I am found,

I am brand new.

Now, look at me!

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Here I stare,

My hands,

Scraped and bruised,

My heart,

Broken and beaten,

I am not strong,

No, not of my own.

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But I know my shepherd,

And my shepherd knows me,

So whenever I get lost,

I know just the one,

Who will come,

To rescue me.

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