My Point of View

I will be honest, my good friend, it was scary! Very scary. Dark. Cold. And worst of all…lonely! Oh, so very lonely. But then you showed up! I know you can’t understand me, but I still want to show you why you’re the best human ever! It was a very cold day when I first saw you, but you made everything instantly warmer! I knew this could be my chance; seeing your long black fur on your head and some sort of fuzzy fur jacket, I just had to get closer and feel the warmth radiating from you. This seemed to have gathered your attention; I couldn’t help but wag my black tail that matched your fur! That’s when you looked and I saw them, your bright blue eyes. So pretty, like the water I get in my bowel every day!

Before I knew it, I was in a very bright house. You said I could call it home, so that’s what I did! We had so many great adventures in our home, even if sometimes I made the fur above your blue eyes furrow. What? I smelled pizza, and we both know I love pizza! I wasn’t aware I wasn’t allowed to use the kitchen like you do. Oh, I also remember all of the movies we watched, but don’t worry I was always ready to protect you when I heard another dog or predator on the weird screen! We went on many walks, and oh boy, how I love walks! And in case you are wondering, we own most of the city now, no need to thank me. But my most favorite place we walked to was the ice-cream shop! You don’t know this but while you were chatting up with other two-legged people I was observing and protecting you while you were off guard! There was once a time I stopped a squirrel from attacking and eating your ice-cream! I hope you felt safe with me.

All our time together was so valuable and precious, and I loved how it was just the two of us for a very long time. Life was simple, but then there was this other human. This one didn’t have fur on his head the same color as ours. It was yellow, and very spiky. He smelt funny. I didn’t really like him. Although at first you seemed to enjoy his company, during this time we were separated, and when this blonde guy would leave, I sensed stress from you. I would always re-enter the room once smelly boy left, he seemed to not enjoy my company, and you would smile at me. Then, we would snuggle while you watched some more movies. Eventually, we got into a new routine with this blonde guy, and although I love routines, I couldn’t help but notice you didn’t. Even though you would seem happy in front of this guy, it never felt like the same happiness you were feeling with me. That stressed I sensed was all the time with this boy, and this boy was over all the time. One time while you were hurriedly cooking some yummy smelling food (which I know tasted good, even though blonde boy didn’t let me eat it), I saw the smelly guy look into your bag and pull something green out of it. It looked like the same green stuff you traded for my yummy ice cream. It was strange.

Soon, there were no more ice-cream trips, and the movies you watched with me, during the few occasions blonde smelly boy was away, were no longer as happy. Your pretty blue eyes were always low. I wanted to do something. Return the green stuff, but I have no hands. Tell blonde boy the truth about how he’s making you feel the opposite of how you want to feel when cuddling with someone. I know, I’m just a smaller being than you, but I know that feeling. The one I get when we’re together with pizza and fun movies. The one I get when we get ice-cream, and you stroke my fur. I believe you guys have a word for it, and I would say it’s the one you keep saying to blonde boy with tension in your shoulders after your voices turned more into barks. But I don’t believe you believe that word, so I wouldn’t, for you! I really did want you to start feeling the warmth again, the same warmth you gave me after saving me from my cold place. I think you were in a cold place too. I did everything I could, I made sure you were safe and gave you all my attention, but then the blonde smelly guy stopped coming by. I thought this would’ve made you happy, because it meant I could be around more. I don’t think smelly guy liked me very much, but that’s okay, because I didn’t like him. But you weren’t happier. I felt the tension leave but your eyes were always watery. I did get a lot of attention, and I hope it made you feel better knowing I was always there for you, and I am, and will always be there for you.

Our pizza nights turned into ice-cream at home nights, which was super neat! I didn’t know ice-cream could move places. And we would watch movies again like the old times, except this time you would always pick movies that made you make weird noises. It sounded and felt sad. During these movies I made sure to never leave your side, even when there were interesting noises stirring outside. I knew that’s what you needed. Me. And sure enough, after a while it felt like old times again, except that some my fur no longer matches yours. But your eyes were wide again, and you started laughing and applauding at my tricks! I worked very hard for you to like them, so I’m very happy you enjoyed them! Everything was bright again! There was no more blonde boy again and based off of the things you told me during, as you called it “gossip sessions”, I am very glad he is no longer here. I did try to tell you about the green stuff he stifled from your bag, but I don’t think you understood me. That’s alright, you were smiling, and that’s all I need.

Although the days were warm again and our old routine was starting to become the new, I feel I have to apologize. I know I was the reason our walks were shorten due to my strength not being the same as it was before, but I try to make it up to you by giving you all my kisses until your face is as slobbery as my nose. I did notice that at times we stopped our walks short even though I was okay to keep going. These walks conveniently always happened when you stopped after seeing more boys…you tend to walk really fast after those conversations. But that’s okay, that meant we got to go home faster which means food and cuddles!

My life has been the greatest in the world, and it’s all because of you. I do have a feeling that tonight might be my last cuddling with you, but that’s okay, you have given me everything I’ve ever imagined! You talked to me yesterday about how the vanilla ice cream we ate was the last one I’ll ever have, and your face was all furrowed again. I didn’t understand, then, because just because I won’t be having any more, it doesn’t mean you’re done with ice cream. We’re watching our last movie and that feeling is back. That same warmth and brightness. But this time there’s a different feeling with it, one I feel from you. It’s like you’re already mourning someone even though they’re still here. I have a feeling it might be for me. I’m tired. I’m tired, but happy. And that word, the one you said with tension before, I feel it now, but relaxed, love. Love. Yeah, that feels right. My entire time spent with you has been filled with love, and I know you don’t know it, and can’t understand me, but I love you. You have made my time on this planet perfect. Tonight, as we’re watching our final movie, I’ve been recounting all of our amazing adventures and I want to thank you. You deserve all the love and pizza and ice cream in the world. But you deserve more, I hope you find someone you love as much I love you. Someone who doesn’t make you tense up and lie, but someone who likes you like you like ice cream. I know you will find them, because you found me, and I love you and I know you love me too.