My love

Trigger warning: Yandere, mental health, gore,monster, guns,mild sexual themes,insults,worship.

I don't support any bad actions or extreme opinions of the main character!

At night I see him sitting alone and eating his ramen. What an anime freak. He even has long hair. He watches some stupid form of a Japanese cartoon on his laptop. I hate him. Hate him for his hair, his eyes, his anime love and...His love with her.

My Lucia...My love, my goddess, my STARS AND GALAXY!

I'm just a monster, but if I kill him...I will be hers. I'll be her boyfriend. A boy!

I come closer. Arnold is sitting in his headphones, he doesn't even pay much attention to his surroundings. What a loser.

My mouth opens. My teeth flash in the light of his lamp. He does not turn around. Untill it's too late...

Blood is sweet. Sweet and thick on my tongue. His brain is a little slimy. But that's okay. Poor worm. Didn't even have time to scream.

His laptop is wet with blood. Will be hard to wipe it. Now I have to clean the mess...

I eat the rest of his body. Leave only one lock of hair. Then I clean the blood and all stuff. Hard work. Good that his sister didn't wake up.

I gulp down the ramen. Tastes like worms. Would be hard pretending to like it.

I shift.

I look at my hands. I am him and he is me. We are Arnold. But I am the Arnold who deserves Her.

***

"Arnie!"

What...Is that stupid voice?

"Arnie,wake up! It's time for school!"

Probably his sister, Danica. She's like his mom or something like that.

"Five more minutes,Dani..."-what a stupid nickname. But he always calls her that, so guess I should too.

"Okay,but only five!"

The fat sister finally leaves. I lay with my hands over my face like Arnold used to and try to breathe. Today I'll see Lucia...My goddess. And kiss her! And-

"Breakfast's on the table! Off to work!"-I hear her voice.

Good riddance. I hope it's not ramen. "Bye bye!"

I sit up in bed. After eating Arnold I won't be hungry for a good while.

I get dressed. Find a black long shirt and jeans. I hate long shirts, but now I'm Arnold, so I should wear them. What did She even find in him...

No. I should never question Her.

I go to the dining room. Some omlette and sweet pepper. Tolerable.

***

I meet Lucia and her brother, Wade, at the school entrance. Lucia takes my breath away. She looks perfect in this pink skirt and blue blouse. And the stockings...

I barely hold back a moan.

"Arnie!"-Lucia rushes to me and runs into my arms.

Her warmth burns my skin...It is...I can't even...LUCIA! AH!

"Mmm..."-I moan breathelessly.

"Are you good,man?"-Wade asks.

Shut up, Wade...Just shut your mouth...

Wade's ugly. But anyone next to Her is.

"He's good,Wade."-Lucia says over my shoulder.

I'm over the gazzilionth sky. Good. HAH!

Lucia stops th hug. My arms stay in the air. I can't talk or even breathe. I want her back...

I ignore Wade and kiss Lucia's mouth. She tastes like the best seafood...

"Arnie!-she yelps-I ate fish today!"

Oh her blush...

I touch her cheek and stroke it. "Best fish,seems."-I try to laugh, cause that's what humans do when they say stuff like that.

But how can I...

Lucia steps back and laughs, Wade watches weirdly.

Lucia looks over at Wade. "Uum...Anyways. Let's go. Wade wanted to show you something, you'll like it!"-she giggles.

"Anything for you!"-rips off my throat.

This Wade squints his eyes. He knows too much...

"Yeah..."-he mutters.

***

A gun. How could I overlook? And how...How did he get it?

Wade twirls it over in his hands. He looks like he forgot I and Her are here. But good he's not suspicious anymore.

Lucia touches it too. So I pretend to like it.

Wade looks proud of it. "Dad gave it to me yesterday.-he looks at us-Did you Arnie not forget what's tomorrow?"

Oh yeah,your birthday...The day when I'll kill you.

"No,of course no. I made a good one!"-I laugh.

Wade looks strange again.

"Oh,happy birthday by the way!"-I switch the topic.

Wade crosses his arms. "Yeah. Thanks..."

I'll go in the argue mode...Arnold sometimes does that.

"What's the arms about?"-I say in the most Arnold tone I can.

Wade wants to say something. But...

Lucia. "Guys...Please!"-She grips her hair.

HOW COULD I FORGET SHE HATES FIGHTS?

"Sorry,Lu.-I actually kinda like that name-We won't. Peace,Wade?"

"Peace."- he's still suspicious.

***

After school me and Lucia walk alone. Wade is at a football training. Just kicking a ball,what's so good about it?

Lucia takes my hand. Suddenly I forget how to breathe. "Arnie..."-she whipers.

Must be something serious. "Yeah?"- I whisper too.

She opens her blouse's sleeve. "I...cut myself again...I'm sorry..."

It makes me want to cry. I can breateh again but better I did not. LUCIA! WHY?!

"I know I shouldn't, but...It's..."

"I claw my face when I watch you on that."

Wait...No...

Lucia stares. "What?..."

I can't even say anything. Out. On the first day. Arnold is not even the biggest loser. The real one I mean.

After all...LETSBEREALIAMNOTHIM!

She takes out Wade's gun. "Wade told me."-her voice is stone.

Should have killed him when there was chance.

"Didn't believe him,took it just because. But you aren't Arnie."-she aims the gun at me.

What's the point of lying?

"I am not him. But I can be! I love you,I will-"

"I DON'T CARE! GO AWAY OR I'LL SHOOT YOU! WHERE'S ARNIE?"

My world goes down. THEN I DON'T CARE EITHER!

Tears rip off my eyes and I rip my shirt off and force her hand on my chest. "THEN SHOOT!-I scream, but then whisper- Right here..."

My voive cracks. And for a moment...I can be a real boy...

But only for a moment.

My love...I'm a worthless ugly monster.

Anything I'll ever be.