Only if I had a Choice…

Within the many mysteries and theoretical assumptions about ‘Reincarnation ‘, which have been circulating since dawn of the many ancient Occidental beliefs; so far I haven’t been able to prove this hypothesis either way in order to convince, myself. For many years for I’ve been trying very hard to comprehend and to be convinced by this ancient cognitive content.

Yet, I am still and will be forever left behind in a complete abysmal darkness with no answers to ever show for it. Is this some kind of cosmic renewal towards upgrading? It sounds more like the workings of ‘Intelligent Design’ in the making where the human destiny is already be distinguished and shaped to being defined as a ready-made setup or a pre-fabricated procedure. This is where an initial designation has been cagily drawn up by some unknown entity with a power dynamic that holds specific data with absolute no possibility of prior divulgements or negotiations towards the intended masses. A pre-disposed and hidden agenda has been created to be later revealed as some secretive state revulsionto be dealt with.

This is where is an indisputable and imposed preventionto access the distinct privilege of ‘ Pure Free Will’in order to carefully manage one’s a contented life as they see fit for themselves.No one is ever really permitted to fully make up their minds or openly choose their own path of longevity without the extraneous and unwarranted interferences of others’ narrow-mindedness.

If is so, everyone who exists is individually assigned a cosmic role throughout within their own microcosm in space? Yes, obviously, this is only my personal guesswork that’s being precisely determined. Anyhow, can someone out there, please prove me tangibly, wrong? If none exists, it would be quite helpful to knowwhat kind of well-intended reality that we are headed for. This is where the idea of choice has never possessed a real meaning, but it is awarded as only a means of luxury to be rightfully earned.

Amid my unexpected arrival in this recent existence; I had been inexplicably thrown into a turbulent world without my consent. I had absolutely no idea what was going on, let alone understand what, why and how that I had reached this point in Time. My existence has been constantly complicated where it was and still filled with unimaginable number of inquiries.

Among the struggling ordeals along the way, my situation was never considered to be an actual priority nor was I being prepared for any unforeseen ugliness. Originally, I was being viewed as some kind of granted miracle of Nature; little did I know I was then being propped up as a helpless individual as a promotional form of contemporary entertainment for the surrounding masses. Obliviously feeling at that early age, I had no real inkling what was I headed for or who I was going to encounter in the future.

Another moment of reality is when I become an inconveniently complicated, people have now changed their perspectives when hardships, mishaps and shocks are beginning to enrapture me. The horizon’s approaching scenes are being depicted to be no longer being witnessed as cheerful, only as misery and desperation.

Thepicture of my virginal innocence has now been obliterated into an unobtainable chasm and it will never be re-captured, again. There exists unambiguously no hope of rejuvenating purity. Since I have lived a full life; I am aware of everything that did happened and I have made only some determinations of why they had occurred in the manners which they had to follow through.

Otherwise, there’s a plethora of unanswered questions which are awaiting some specific concrete definitions in order to a receive a better comprehension as others will be forever beyond my realm of thinking.

Whyis this happening?! It would be more comforting to know some of the very functions of these substantial results before ever the possibility of any premature exit. Once the age of reason was reached; without neither my consent nor my understanding; open liberties were taken when I was initially and vulnerably indoctrinated from my restrictivenessbelief system.

The next steps of my modernized maturity will be forever filled with others’pre-conceived anticipations and wide expectations of time. The struggle for one’s identity becomes a battle instead of a simple choice. This is when everyone’s itineraries will be forciblyand miserably manifested, intertwined & twisted with one another.

Yet, no adult is willing to take the time to carefully explain to the following generation what are they going to be exposed to and how to deal with it. The only reason for this ‘excuse’ for not extending more attention to further child rearing is because they become more self-involved in their own lives once children are out and about in society. The protection of their children no longer to be a priority.

My earliest moments are evidentally manipulated until I wake up to realize that some idioms which are being immediately and incorrectly awarded to the wrong people where they are neither going to be properly suited nor the accommodating.

Emerging conflicts and misconceptions will undoubtedly be created along this vigorous path. Then a time will come when a belligerent stance must be taken to set out fitting boundaries in order to be fully respected in society. The guarantee of being hated as well being adored is going to be inevitable throughout this entire obstacle course. It’s acquiring the correct maneuverability to remain sane and alert towards all incoming events.

As I reach this point in my existence; my ‘end of times ‘ could arrive at anytime. Will it be at my own hand, my own stupidity or at my most dignified moment? I simply have no clue, yet I would hope for some intended prospects in the future. Since, I don’t possess any extrasensory skills;yet it wouldn’t be a bad idea, either. Some are commercially sold upon the comfortable illusion of enjoying their ‘Golden Years’ in relative peace. As for the majority are swiftly sentenced to be stripped of our senses and dignity, no matter whether or not we deserve these consequences and placed in confinement out of sight of the mobile public.

If these visions could be fully realized as it were, then everyone could become the ultimate architect of their own finale. Otherwise, we’re all ended up to face and deal with the unknown on our own.

Since the construct of freedom is certainly an illusion and not an exclusive right, most of humanity is being denied many opportunities which many should have received in the first place. Well, fantasy and reality will always be at war with one another; one stands for supposedly contented freedom (that no one will ever fully possess) and while the other will only stand towards reasoning and security.

With no wide expectations as the final threshold is exposed for me, my only thought will be that the journey will be at length over for me to attain an eternal rest. If reincarnation does exist, I would largely hope that I would be offered the luxury of accessing some sort of cosmic computer catalog in order to choose my new origins to find and acquire a decent shape of happiness and avoid any wasted time to be an unwanted encircled with idiots and unnecessary imbecilities. Why can’t it be as engaging to be able to choose one’s friends as well one’s relatives???

Why not have the previously gained and applicable life skills and talents which were acquired through the many learning curves; it would be great to choose who I want to be descended from. This strong factor would hold a definite of preparedness towards the next cycle. In accordance to responding to my constructive needs would seek out an intellectual lineage in order to dutifully be progressive and accommodating.

These attained measures would clearly follow a procedure of necessary sanity and patience and correctly profit from the period of time isbeing left. Instead of constantly being randomly tripped up bythe surrounded crudely insecure as they voluntarily invokecomplications for their pathetic entertainment. Thelost time of unwanted politics and power struggles which can be completely do without the argumentative redundancies which are emotionally exhausting would earn more time to be productive.

Stupidity is certainly not a challenge; it’s an utterly waste of time that delays the eventual prosperity of further positive development. No one wants to admit that a serious change is needed where Humanity has possessed the same re-occurring behaviour problems since the moment they learned to walk upright. Then, most of us had moved on to killeach another for reasons of acclaimed supremacy.

Why has anyone of the highly educated step in to assist and correct these egregious misdemeanors and discrepancies in order to reach global harmony? Who knows, if we try hard enough with the means which we possess; maybe, it could become the very first step in creating some basic idea of our own Utopian landscape…….….

Besides, I don’t know of anyone who chooses to be randomly born in a specific era and environmental surroundings in time. What about the people, environment and circumstances which one is being deliberately placed in between without any causes or called for? All of these sites have been chosen for us by another power and not the other way around. As long as you are Human, everyone is treated in the same child-manner. Again, there’s no forms of consent which exist to ever rely to survive in a civilized life and fully learn without holding any feelings of resentment.

Within this manner of a forward-lookingintellect; itwould not only possess some continuous contentment, yet also to possibly acquire a long-term form of supportive progressiveness where a fine sense of achievement would be able to be looked back on with very little regrets and no misunderstandings.