The first time it happened I blamed being overworked.
The stress was finally getting to me. I was tired. At that point, I had been awake for almost twenty hours. I was hunched over my laptop at a near-empty café. The rain had been falling consistently since this morning, the Brussels drizzle that doesn't become a storm but doesn't really stop either. It was a cold and miserable day, perfect for trying to finish this article. My cup of tea had become cold hours ago, sitting there forgotten.
I was writing an article on memory, or rather how unreliable it is.
A professor I had interviewed earlier that week had told me something I couldn’t stop thinking about: The brain doesn’t replay memories like a video. It reconstructs them every time.
Meaning every time you remember something, you might be changing it.
I stared at the blinking cursor on the screen, tapping my finger in thought against the table. That's when I noticed something strange.
The man sitting across the café—gray coat, red scarf—stood up, walked to the counter, ordered a coffee, and dropped a coin. It rolled across the floor, spinning in a tight circle before falling flat. The barista sighed. The man laughed. A woman by the window looked up from her book.
I watched the coin stop moving.
Then everything… reset.
Not dramatically. Not like a flash or a blackout. Just suddenly I was back to staring at the blinking cursor.
The man in the gray coat was sitting again. The coin hadn’t dropped yet. Five seconds later, he stood up, walked to the counter, and dropped the coin.
It rolled across the floor exactly the same way. Same spin, same laugh from the man and sigh from the barista.
The same woman looked up from her book.
My stomach tightened. I sat perfectly still.
“Did you see that?” I asked the guy at the next table.
He looked up from his phone. “See what?”
“The coin.”
“What coin?”
I looked at the floor.
The man had already picked it up.
I forced a laugh. “Never mind.”
I went back to writing, but the cursor felt different now—like it was waiting for me to figure something out.
I wrote the words déjà vu in my notes.
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The second time it happened I couldn't ignore it.
I was on the metro, on line 2. It was full of the usual quiet evening crowd, tourists and commuters. Across from me sat a teenager wearing headphones, and beside him an elderly woman holding a bouquet of yellow flowers.
At the next stop a man rushed in before the doors closed and fell slightly. The woman accidentally dropped the flowers. The man apologised and she picked them up.
But then—
The metro doors opened again. The same man stumbled in and the woman dropped her flowers. My heart started pounding as I looked around. Nobody seemed to have noticed, nobody reacted.
Just me.
I grabbed the metal pole in front of me trying to steady myself. “What the hell,” I whispered, trying to regain some composure.
“Are you okay?” the teenager asked, looking at me inquisitively.
“Yes,” I responded automatically, though I didn't quite believe it myself. How could I be okay? I'd just rewatched the same ten seconds happen twice.
Like somebody had rewound reality.
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The next few days it kept happening, but never more than twenty seconds. Always short, always small.
A cyclist nearly hitting a taxi, a waiter dropping a fork, a dog barking twice at the same passing car.
Each time the world rewound slightly and played again. Again, only I seemed to notice.
At first I tried rational explanations. For example, it must be exhaustion. I'm overworked. I have short nights and long days. Stress, perhaps.
But the details were just too precise. I started testing it.
When I felt the strange pressure in my head—the warning sign that something was about to repeat—I’d move.
I would shift my chair, or raise my hand. Cough, or sigh. The new action stayed and everything else repeated, which meant something more disturbing.
The world wasn't repeating.
It was correcting itself.
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The first time I tried to break it the moment lasted longer, about thirty seconds.
I was standing at an intersection and the bus was approaching. The light was green for pedestrians so I stepped off the curb. The man next to me checked his watch as the woman behind me moved her umbrella.
That's when I felt it, that strange pressure again.
Everything rewound and we were back on the curb. This time I stepped backward.
The bus didn't stop.
It barrelled through the red light and screeched to a halt at the intersection.
Exactly where I was standing.
The woman gasped and somebody else shouted. The driver came out, furious. But nobody seemed to realise what happened except me.
But I knew.
I had already died there once.
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I stopped sleeping well after that. Every moment felt like it might fracture. Every conversation felt slightly fragile.
Sometimes the loops happened three times.
Once, four.
Each time the pressure in my head felt stronger.
Like something was struggling.
Or fighting.
Or failing.
I stopped telling people.
The few times I tried, they reacted exactly how you’d expect.
Concern.
Confusion.
Polite nodding.
One friend suggested therapy.
Another said, “You’ve been working too much.”
Maybe I had, but I'd also noticed something else.
The loops were getting longer.
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It happened one Saturday morning as I was taking a stroll through the park.
Children were feeding pigeons near the fountain. A jogger passed me. A man played violin under a tree.
The melody was soft and sad.
Then—
The pressure.
The world rewound.
The pigeons lifted from the ground and returned.
The jogger reappeared behind me.
The violin restarted the same note. But this time the moment lasted nearly a minute.
I stood there frozen.
When the violinist reached the same mistake in the melody as before, I stepped toward him.
“Play something else,” I said.
He frowned. “What?”
“Anything.”
He shrugged and changed the tune.
And suddenly—
The pressure vanished.
No reset. No replay.
The world kept moving forward. I stood there trembling.
Because for the first time… I had broken the loop.
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After that, the resets became rare. Weeks passed.
Then months.
I started to believe it was over. Maybe my brain had fixed itself.
Maybe the world had. Maybe whatever mechanism had been correcting reality had decided I wasn’t a problem anymore.
Life returned to normal.
I finished my article about memory. Ironically, it became the most popular thing I’d ever written.
Readers loved the idea that memories weren’t recordings. They were reconstructions.
Stories we tell ourselves.
Sometimes inaccurate.
Sometimes completely wrong.
Sometimes invented.
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Last night, though, something happened again.
I was sitting in my apartment, reading. Outside, the streetlights glowed orange through the rain.
A car passed. A man laughed somewhere down the street.
Then—
The pressure.
The strongest one yet.
Everything froze. Not rewound.
Just… stopped.
The rain hung motionless in the air. The page of my book stopped mid-turn. The clock on the wall froze between seconds.
And for the first time… I wasn’t alone.
Someone was standing in the doorway. I had never seen them before.
They looked almost ordinary. A tall figure in a dark coat. Their face was calm, almost curious. They looked around my apartment like a scientist inspecting a broken machine.
Then their eyes settled on me.
“You’re not supposed to notice the resets,” they said.
My throat tightened. “What resets?”
“The corrections.”
“What are you talking about?”
They studied me for a long moment “Interesting,” they murmured.
“What is?”
“You’ve survived twenty-seven corrections.”
My chest went cold. “Survived?”
They tilted their head slightly.
“Yes.”
“From what?”
A pause.
Then they gave a small, thoughtful nod. He eyed me and smiled, a politician’s smile, like hiding a secret only he knows.
“As far as you’re concerned,” they said, “that didn’t happen.”
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