I remember

Can you imagine dreaming so vividly they act as memories? And you can literally say I get to remember because I dream? What if they are some form of memory stored somehow on time itself? Time only moves linear: Forwards and backwards. What if you got to remember the very reason it all was created?

I remember being surrounded by pitch darkness and aware of myself only. There were strong powerful feelings encompassing everything, reaching outwards, stretching out far in hopes of finding someone. A great sadness, a great despair; absolutely no understanding why it's only you that's awake, aware, lonely and it's still so dark. Quiet. Empty. That feeling brings an almost resentment emotion because 'why are you created? What's the purpose. Am I alone? What's going on? why.'

I remember crying in my sleep. Those feelings were so strong, stronger then what we can feel in reality. My heart still aches because of it.

And then without knowing creation of any kind was possible; an overwhelming impossible mixed feeling came across my body as slept. Despair, grief, emptiness, hatred, resentment, sadness and the biggest painful feeling of loneliness swept through.

Unimaginable. The emotions screamed all at once in such a harmonious pitiful aching need and I just exploded.

I dreamt of so many nebulas that night, they just emerged from my being.

It was magnificent. Splendor at it's finest. Truly, I'm in awe over what I've dreamt.

And then the oddest thing happen, there was a life form standing in front of me. Time and then another. Balance. Life and death appeared afterwords. The consequences of whatever happened. So some form of natural consequences of equal exchange happened? What was exchanged?

And when I looked around, the brilliance of the colors, of the magical essence that had just ripped through my being. I realized in that very moment I can create beauty.

My first attempt of a new creation on purpose this time, was to do a representation of the beauty surrounding me. I moved my arm in a small wave and then the colors began to swirl, a brilliant light began to glow. I watched sparkles and rainbows dance together to become solid and taking shape. Then hovering before me was a young being.

Her wings was were shifting, not just in shape or size but with colors and glitter. A moving rainbow trail as she flew about around me. What had I just created? She was so cute and so curious and happy to just be. Because like me, what are we? What is she to me? Is she like the others that just appeared?

A creation of pure joy, light and happiness? My own little representation of the newly fresh universe. I just established I made life and I knew I would be able to create other beings. I didn't have to be alone any longer.

And the first thing I did after that realization was give life to all my emotions. To be fair, since they were all just shifting stances, one to another and another. Moment to Moment. And after all, they made me make this. It might have been dark and intense feelings that caused such beauty, but to me each one deserved a thank you.

It was also my worst mistake because I released an emotion so devastating upon my lovely beauty, it's been running havoc since. At first, it loved me. At first, it said such wonderful things about me and the creations. I was prideful at that time with such compliments given. Who wouldn't be? I gave my trust to the wrong entity, when it should have been her. My first. My muse. My sparkling fairy. My epiphany.

I should have just let it stay her and I for alot longer then a mere second. I was consumed with so much excitement, I didn't know then just how deep emotions can get or what they r willing do to gain whatever it is they want to gain.

Those natural consequences of equal exchange? And what was exchanged? All I know is it was a powerful combination of emotions together and if releasing it was the exchange. How strange a power to behold.

I won't argue the pure happiness I was in to finally not be alone anymore was absolute Joy, bliss, excitement, and a willingness to appease them all. People pleasers understand how quickly this is to get walked on. Honestly, it over took me quickly. I just wanted to not be alone anymore.

Just to be clear, Envy was born from resentment. And now it terrorizing the world currently. We call them Bullies. Abusers. Cruel people. Hateful people. Hoarding supplies, resources, money and our time, among so much more thats happened. That's why there were a few laws put into place.

Likw, dont lie, cheat or steal are the main 3 to follow. Don't steal someone's life. Don't cheat them from a life. And no one can allow someone else to choose for someone else. You can only choose for yourself.

However, the conditions in recent eons and years have shown the choices we have to pick from... is nothing short of the phrase 'between a rock and a hard place'. With so many choices to become whoever u r meant to be. But that was also hijacked by envy using loopholes as legit reasons with Balance on Envy's side. Stayed it did and stronger it has become.

Defiantly smarter and bolder with it's next set of choices already beginning to form. It wants the power to create. I gave them the ability to think and solve with minor powers, alot of them had wings because they're cool. There's many ways to create if you are able to create.

I knew no one was going to get the pure range that I am capable of. This type of power in the wrong hands is a nightmare, but it already is. Currently stealing from people. Cheating people of more tgen just money.

Envy might not have all the power but it's strength is incredible when the collective of able bodies give in. And if I get remember because of a dream.. what then?