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[Disclaimer: Contains themes that may be considered violent, disturbing, and/or dark in nature.]

“Eric. … … Eric … … Eric! … What the hell are you doing?”

“I am planting seeds for civilization.”

“Fuck’s sake… What?!”

“I said: I’m planting the seeds for civilization.”

“You’re going to have to wait.”

“That’s a praise of death.”

“You’re getting radiation poisoning and wasting oxygen. That’s looking to die.”

“I'm looking to reforge life.”

“Your pretentious nonsense is driving everyone nuts. We don’t have time and you’re wasting oxygen. Get the back in here.”

“We are to create here. It is my duty.”

“It’s not only too cold, but you’re going off all the plans for it.”

“Plan?”

“Don’t act like you didn’t see the exact schematics.”

“Do you truly believe a rigid idea that a civilization must have the boxes checked off on your tablet?”

“You’re ignoring Colonization 101 and wasting resources by ignoring basic building instructions and substituting them with your own stuff.”

“You simply lack the vision.”

“No, I lack time for your nonsense.”

“Along with a respect for history from your de-educated view of things.”

“Excuse me, dickhead?”

“There’s much to build and plant for those who will use this land, but I know I shall not see such riches I sow.”

“I won’t miss your ass when it drops dead out here.”

“You will not be missed or remembered, other than as an oppressor that many of us sought to flee to begin with. A metric if you will.”

“You’re talking a lot about yourself.”

“I talk the truth of things and apply what I was taught.”

“You were taught to slowly irradiate yourself on the surface of Mars, screwing up construction blueprints?”

“No, I was taught how to build a true civilization.”

“This isn’t Civ 8.”

“I speak of an ancient wisdom.”

“Fuck’s sake, Eric.”

“A wise man plants a tree, knowing he shall never sit in its shade.”

“A wiser man knows where the to plant a palm tree to begin with.”

“Indeed, and it is here.”

“No, it’s not.”

“Don’t you see?”

“You’re not as smart as you think you are.”

“I only know the secrets of taming the God of War’s cheek.”

“I think that radiation poisoning went to your head.”

“I shall become tired soon enough, Daniel. If my fatigue concerns your narrow-minded view of things, you shall know peace of mind soon enough.”

“I’m concerned about how I’m gonna kick your ass.”

“Mmm, all right. … But slaughter a shepherd, the sheep shall scatter.”

“Your head is that inflated, huh?”

“You are the shepherd, and should your crook become too violent, I will subdue you.”

“Is that fucking right!?”

“Yes, it is.”

“Then you go right ahead and try if you have such a problem with me, your smarmy shithead.”

“So, you wish to have me abolish the rule as means to give you permission?”

“You keep fucking around like this and I won’t need it.”

“I am uninterested in abolishing the law simply because we are on the God of War’s cheek.”

“You shouldn’t talk like a tough guy, be a man, and listen to basic orders, and just shut the fuck up for once.”

“I am simply speaking of what is real. You sought for me become savage, and I rejected it as it is unbecoming. Especially, when I seek to make a new life here.”

“You have so many problems with me, then you should go right ahead and try and solve them like a man.”

“That is the logic of feral apes you’re invoking.”

“You racist piece of shit.”

“I hardly find that statement called for.”

“You know what you said!”

“That you invoke a logic only respected by a beast?”

“You think you can talk to me like that?!”

“I am a reasonable man, even if we have a difference in opinion.”

“Now you’re walking that shit back!”

“What is to walk back?”

“You cowardly shit stain.”

“I mean my words, but your interpretation is in bad faith.”

“Bad faith is letting you walk on my team for another minute after this.”

“You misunderstand me.”

“No, I didn’t.”

“All man is primal. The law is technology that men respect, even you.”

“Respect? You seriously think you have respect?”

“I respect your opinions, but I hold the fact of the matter here.”

“You hold a wad of shit expecting everyone to eat it, and I had enough.”

“I speak only of truth about apes and men.”

“You’re spewing racist garbage to a captain when he risks his life to save your sorry ass.”

“There is no insult to blood or creed, it is all fact, a form of technology, biology, and history.”

“Now you’re turtling up, like a little bitch…”

“Carver, calm down.”

“You get back in there and I might consider it.”

“The term savage applies to men who breathe the air of the unknown and have lost the ways of technologies that keep civility.”

“I’m not interested in apologism.”

“You misunderstand. I am not apologizing.”

“There’s nothing to misunderstand, you’re under my leadership and I will have you discharged once Earth command is in communication.”

“I don’t think you’re listening to the main point.”

“Fuckin-“

“In the world’s infancy, such barren wastelands were once littered with savages,”

“trying to paint this as some-”

“yet there is a Catal Hyuk, a Rome, an Israel, a London, a Salt Lake City, a Las Vegas, a San Francisco-”

“I really should just kick your ass.”

“But you still misunderstand.”

“I don’t misunderstand anything, dipshit! Now you don’t speak until spoken to from now on. Clear?”

“At its core, you misunderstand civilization.”

“You son of a bitch…”

“What I said wasn’t a lie.”

“You know what, go ahead, keep running your mouth and stay right out here. See what happens.”

“Our technology sows respect for our fellow men and even weaves the fiction of liberal democracy to life.

“Fucking blow me…”

“A biology that separates us from beasts with superiority over the food chain that we use to maintain control over nature. … A history of our species as humans and our secrets that keeps us above failed civilizations. … And do you know such a secret like I do?

“Go on, keep up your pretentious speech.

“Do you?”

“Go ahead. … You’re not scared now are you?”

“That secret is perseverance, something this crew lacks. … The perseverance which has been gifted to us through parables of a god I once sympathized with. Perhaps even carved in cuneiform many years ago. … To lack that is death. It’s our downfall. … It’s an avoidable tragedy. I’m salvaging a place for your children and mine.”

“You have white man’s burden?”

“No. I have the burden of all humanity, as do you.”

“Fucking unbelievable.”

“I seek to make it lighter for generations to come.”

“No, it’s white man’s burden.”

“The miracle of civilization, is a feat we all take for granted. We lack an understanding of it in some way, even myself.”

“Clearly.”

“Yet I have a key, as do you. … You have authority, I have guidance, we both have resources.”

“I have authority to get your sorry ass off my settlement. And trust me, I will.”

“I have the guidance to save our legacy and blood.”

“I don’t need Nazis here.”

“No, you’re very thick headed, Carver. It’s very unbecoming of a leader.”

“Don’t you fuckin’ patronize me. This is all you did since you got here. The whole colony is sick of you fucking up the plans here and then you spinning it into some shit.”

“I am simply here to help you to understand the secret of civilization.”

“Shut your double-speak up.”

“It starts with irrigation and agriculture, which is what I’m doing. I cannot leave until it is finished.”

“You know what, you keep playing with yourself and your toys and I’ll be here watching you slowly radiate yourself to death. Save us the fuel.”

“You forget we are meant to build. I cannot allow nature to tear this down.”

“And I told you you’re wasting resources and doing it wrong, like everyone told you before, you cousin fucking pig-headed retard.”

“Elements, nature, man, all things try their hand against the task to settle. Perseverance to create value no matter the cost. … This much we understand, do we not? I seek to build upon a beach a grand castle for my children’s children to see.”

“If you followed basic instructions, it would be not on a fucking beach.”

“Many placements of civilization are deemed inconvenient, yet with such technology, placement is a luxury.”

“I’m leaving and when you get back, you can expect to have your teeth kicked in and a one-way ticket out of here.”

“To employ such great strength only to bury your head in the red sands is pitiful, Carver.”

“Keep running that mouth.”

“You have what I lack. A strength and a leadership, even to a fault, but lack control.”

“The only thing I lack is the authority to kill you and snuff that cryptic bullshit up.”

“There is nothing cryptic. It’s a message only those who are willing to hear it. … Such a system tends to un-educate us of this to keep us domesticated, yet we strive for more, and that brings us here on this planet. To transcend what false gods-”

“I’m leaving you to shove your radiated brain up your ass, stop voice calling me.”

“That is the pretense that leads you to death.”

“You don’t know shit about building. You kept getting in the way and adding stupid bullshit. I had to keep telling you stop and you ignored me. I can’t trust you to run a basic hydroponics machine either.”

“I don’t seek your trust. … Or respect for that matter. … I seek to create.”

“Maybe then don’t mouth off any dog whistles.”

“You know what I say was as I said, not any other form of rhetoric.”

“Typical backpedaling since you got caught.”

“You’re a bit de-educated, aren’t you?”

“Oh you mother-”

“The schools you attended kept you in shadows of what I say to you, don’t they?”

“Eric, you go fuck yourself.”

“I am irrigating, and I told you this. I also told you simply and as is, that you are de-educated of reason.”

“Fuck off and die in the radiation here, Eric. Nobody needs your shit.”

“You know fully well that I refuse to die so quickly.”

“Yeah, you’re a cockroach.”

“Carver, you refuse to think anything but laterally.”

“Christ on a bicycle…”

“I must ask you, what keeps you from killing me if you can do it? … What keeps you from killing a man who insulted you so much? … I do not hate you, Carver.”

“Bullshit.”

“I hate your demeanor, conviction, and stubbornness. It perverts the gift we seek to lay here.”

“Like you have the same goal.”

“Do we not?”

“Not tonight, we don’t.”

“Then what is your motivation?”

“My motivation is to kick the shit out of you.”

“Let me ask you something, Captain.”

“No! Shut up!”

“What did you give to be on here?”

“None of your business, shut up.”

“I have no need for a story, I just would like to know.”

“Fuck yourself, Eric. I’m not letting you get in my head like you did with the others.”

“Perhaps I have a better question.”

“Fuck’s sake.”

“How much did it take to get this far?”

“You can read logs, cant you?”

“I am not asking what resources. What did you give to be on Mars? … Your family? … Your friends?”

“Stop voice chatting me, motherfucker.”

“You can say it to yourself. I find that more dignified as well.”

“And what did you give up other than your sanity?”

“That’s just it. It’s insane to sacrifice, only to give more away.”

“I just sacrificed my restraint, just for you. … You waste of skin.”

“I see that… usually a sacrifice is out of compassion, isn’t it?”

“If you were so compassionate, you’d shut up now.”

“But I am compassionate to teach the way of things, even if you wish to remain in the dark.”

“Don’t you fucking act like that and start packing your tools up. We got something to settle, don’t we?”

“No. It’s as I said. I must finish the task I am given. I must sacrifice my flesh to the tangerine skies above, even for those who hate me and plant the tree. I do this out of compassion. A compassion I learned many times over, but now had it sink in only recently.”

“…and you have the balls to call me stupid.”

“No. I said you were dense, like myself.”

“I'm NOTHING like you!”

“You are incredulous, but not stupid.”

“You are a fucking coward.”

“I speak freely to you, as I respect you enough for that.”

“Respect?!”

“Yes.”

“I let you talk to me because I know your worthless, sorry ass will be back on Earth in a slum. I’m letting you lead your own way back there, instead of on here, with us, where the people went to escape your stupid ass. People like you! I refuse to let you sit here and ruin everything just because you got some dream or guilt or whatever.”

“I can only hope the soil can be wet with your tears prior to your own dismissal.”

“You think you’re so pious then you keep running your mouth and showing me your white man’s burden like your ugly cracker face? You are out of your mind to say you respect me after calling me de-educated. That shit I escaped. Now it’s here again, and it’s called Eric.”

“It would be clever if I was unknowingly making a hangman’s noose, but I am a craftsman that intends to make a ladder for us both with no other motivation than to create. Do you know why?”

“Just shut up.”

“You permitted me to craft, perhaps out of spite or charity. Much like how I am here now.”

“I know how you got here, Eric.”

“Yes, I sit here carving out civilization because I was permitted to, and was given such a permission again. … Much like you, I boarded that ship because I was permitted to. … I was able to get into SpaceX’s program by showing my merit because I was permitted to. I managed to supersede the modern slavery of the Human Resources department and redneck boss, because I was permitted to. I applied to SpaceX using a tailored resume, since I was permitted to. I had such a resume after a visit to the career center at MIT because I was permitted to enter. The feudal system of academia passed me and allowed me to understand their ways, because I was permitted to. I applied to MIT with a letter and a transcript because I was permitted to. I participated in the ruthless competitions, scholarships, and internships, because I was permitted to. I was able to kindle my passion to create based on my vision because I was permitted to. I was able to have a vision to be in the grace to tame the God of War, because I was permitted to.”

“Maybe I should permit you a lesson to shut your mouth.”

“Perhaps I was wordy, repetition is how I learn too.”

“You’re almost too pathetic for me to waste my time…”

“But you heard the message?”

“You haven’t got a thing to say.”

“I see your problem. It is not stupidity you suffer from, but a lust for ignorance.”

“You suck Elon’s cock clean off for that quote?”

“You find any excuse to remain blind to the fact there is a better calling beyond some board of directors, let alone one man. You continue to seek prisons, binds, chattels, and plantations-”

“You’re not even trying now.”

“-and I blessed you with one that allows freedom from choice. It frees you of thought. Yet you seek comfort in the illusion of civility.”

“No, I want your ass out of here.”

“I seek to create and make my only and final sacrifice here.”

“Then pull off that helmet now, you son of a bitch. Suck on that nice Martian air and donate your body to science. Maybe you’ll get to be the tree.”

“As I said, I intend to fulfill my mission to give myself to this land, much like how my life was given to me.”

“Given? You’re taking up air and my time. You’re all about taking, because you had permission like you admitted. Now that I’m saying no, you keep dancing like a Nazi faggot.”

“But nothing is simply taken. We are allowed to or we are not. My work does not allow me to stop. I am not permitted to stop. I am only permitted to rest. As I am able to permit life to come here, with my blood, sweat, tears, seeking a life beyond my own. It’s my redemption for living in a system of lies. Do you understand?”

“Do you understand how batshit crazy you got to be to think like the way you do?”

“Civilized men intending to spread and share ourselves, that’s what this is. Please excuse me.”

“Stand up.”

“Carver, I can’t let you stop me.”

“I’m the Captain! You do what I say! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?”

“I answer to your superior.”

“NO YOU ANSWER TO ME!”

“Unfortunately, I do not.”

“Then you are under arrest for insubordination.”

“The God of War is boiling your blood. You must resist.”

“Don’t you say another fucking word.”

“Carver.”

“Hands behind your back, now!”

“You know I cannot do that.”

“HANDS UP.”

“Listen to the voice of life-”

“RIGHT NOW.”

“-and permit me to create-”

“STOP RESISITING.”

-as you have.”

“I WILL USE FORCE.”

“Carver, there is so much I want to teach you from my mistakes.”

“SHUT UP!”

“You may be permitted this-

“SHUT UP!”

“-but you can choose not-”

“SHUT UP!” … Shut up. Shut up. … Just… shut up. … Fuck’s sake. … See? … You got what you wanted.”

Transcription by Echosoft © 2036