Lamenting One Second to Midnight

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Dear sweet and loving Jesus, within twenty minutes, our world will be gone. That is the only thing that needs to be said and there is nothing else to say. But I will to confide to you Lord and thank you for the wonderful life I had!

Of course, my son and daughters asked me many questions. My wife, Johanna, asked if there was anywhere to go, repeatedly, trying to further he mission to give you your love. I asked myself why, as I naturally want to seek the wisdom even in the darkest of times. However, all these questions already had answers, as I have come to realize. The questions were asked anyway for the first ten minutes to calm our spirits and let us grieve for those duped by Satan and his evil plan to have hatred sown throughout this Former Earth. His corporate tools, politicians, and paid liars tried in vain to demoralize us all, but it ultimately failed; ow they are striking our lovely home with nuclear warheads. Even in this dark hour, I thank you Jesus for giving me this life I led. You made me the best man and showed me the meaning, hope, joy and love most of all, just like Grampa said!

As I pray to you, I hold Jacob, Eliza, and Ruth tight, while my wife comforts them with kisses. Thank you Jesus for allowing me the final hours with my family. It's more than I could ever asked you, but you delivered. Their blonde and brown hair are rubbing on my chest as, tears, spit, and their bitter grape juice wet my sweater. I assured them, it’s as you said: There will be a New Earth for us to visit, just like in the tapes we made for our wonderful Aunts and Uncles in The Family. That they can go on an enormous field trip where they can still see everyone, commuting by flying saucer from the great pyramid; can see their other friends who did not accept Jesus into their heart and show love and healing to them using the wisdom Grampa, my wife, and I learned; and glide and scan the unending rolling plains and farms, where there are livestock and produce for plenty and thus no need for wars. We, in advance, thank you for allowing us our new bodies. I cannot wait to see my daughters do sky ballet and very much look forward to seeing Jacob’s delight in going faster than light.

If the great New Earth is anything like the great farm we own here and give unto our wonderful friends who we share and reciprocate our love to, then I hope that it is enjoyable for our children as well. Their new super bodies and abilities to fly will be met with joy! They can see their old friends too, even if they didn't accept you into their heart earlier! They’ll be able to help, heal, and even give them the love that we all deserve, no matter what the situation is. An absence of wars, famine, plague, and pests is what I am humbly asking you for. I know in the great pyramid will have you and your apostles waiting for us to hear more of what our next steps will be in the great new earth you promised.

I thank you so many times for giving us the tools, teachings, and wisdom to avoid Satan’s plans to digitally mark us for death and steal our souls, like Grampa's Magic Green Shirt. You warded away all the horrid thoughts from our minds of doing evil onto others and betraying you worse than Judas. Moreover, you allowed me to speak the truth publicly to stand up for you! We know you forgave them many times, and we loved them as if they were The Family, but they just didn’t listen! Indeed, the barcode scanners were the beginning, as you told us many times. You and Grampa told us to live off the land as you intended from the beginning and we found happiness; but the devil’s use of modernity, convenience, soullessly licentious behavior, and false luxuries made us nearly all driven mad! The Communists, The Russians, even the vile pretenders that invaded your homeland have made this Earth hateful! The United States, Europeans, and even South America’s governments are no different in their mutual desire to condemn us to hell! But Grampa came forward and spoke the truth, like he said to make an International Family. Without you, how could we warn the others how the digitization of the devil would infect our very flesh and cost us our soul? Look at the great, aunts, uncles, cousins, we made and the love we shared all throughout the world! Living off the land isn’t easy, given the droughts and living with little electricity, but our efforts were fruitful since we prayed with strength. Praise to you, Lord! You blessed us with rainwater, great harvests, a set of heifers and chickens that my children marveled at for their simple way of life and yet learn how the greatest is the least from their example. That the kingdom of heaven on your New Earth requires us to be humble like small children, or chickens!

Yes, Lord, this lovely farm and the amazing new family you gave me was perhaps the greatest thing of all. Not only did you give me a wonderful family, but a set of amazing set of Aunts and Uncles who love me as much as they love you! My neighbors and their enormous family of six and their neighbors with a family of ten make me truly blessed. The joy of teaching from my past life was able to be repurposed for the benefit of my friends and their families. Teaching them math, science, geography, the good word, and your love is a task any believer would be covetous of. Grampa always needs help, but this was a true honor. Someone as humbled throughout my life was exulted as you said. Thank you Jesus for such a great opportunity.

I almost forgotten that you made our fruits of our labor for us! Satan’s spies may have watched, and, oh, did they watch like the voyeuristic lechers they were. They sent so many thieves and liars to our encampment, ensuring we were still in his watchful, restless gaze, but you Jesus have protected us from him and his imps by showing us the way to spot them. Yet, Lord, I pity the apostates that fell into their scam! They were so close to getting all the love and prosperity from the New Earth as you promised. My crazy faith got many of our Aunts and Uncles to stay and hear your nurturing words, but some are driven by a lack of fortitude, driven by shame from outside forces, or just had too many problems weighing them down, refusing to ask for your help. I am thankful for the life I led to keep them among The Family using your way of love.

Thank you, again, Jesus, for the opportunities to help the sick, the poor, the needy, and even the sinners see the light through our International Family of Love. Jesus, to meet lovely friends and neighbors who cared for their fellow man through the international mission to Australia, Italy, Brittan, France, Brazil, China, and Japan was an honor. My regrets are not being able to do more, even with this mortal body that is constantly plagued with fatigue. Each time I prayed for the strength of Saint Peter to hold the same sermons with the same spirit of his first sermon, it was always given at just the right time! I especially thank you for giving us the strength to combat the sinners that sought to cheat the poor. We always stood for you; therefore, we thank you for standing for us in return. Disease, famine, corporate slavery, government monopolies, and death plagued the areas using Satan’s many tricks to cheat us.

Meeting my wife was a blessing from you, certainly, Lord. Johanna, who I love very much. She showed me the way of loving you, Jesus, with such passion that I needed to learn how to replicate in every way possible. For giving me that wisdom behind love, I cannot thank you enough. Knowing the sight of Grampa and her, Lord, was the best way of blessing me. I was lost, for the Protestants had no answer to showing compassion. You Lord, manifest in truth among the largest Family of Love. To feed when hungry, tend to the sick, comforted when crestfallen, all seemed to me a lost art, but it was I who was lost. That love was inspirational and made me press on to meet you, Jesus.

Johanna's love was truly magnificent to me and that love continued as she embraced me. We conceived our first child that very same day, giving me an opportunity to demonstrate my love, free of all lust and lechery, just as Grampa said. She knew it was meant to be, as did I, that I take her hand and that I ensure that all our children and fellow men understand the true meaning of love. We were nearly inseparable, unless it was you in our lives and Grampa too. We owe our lives and happiness to you, Jesus.

You know too well how was hard for me to learn charity that you, Lord, exemplify. I had given everything I had to Grampa to make sure all could be made whole. Not a single earthly pleasure was going to get me to the New Earth, and this was a lesson I learned harshly. You reminded me, Jesus, that it was our duty to render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, to the things of God the things that are God’s. Without this wisdom, I would never have known how much I didn’t need and would have been unable to differentiate the psychic leeches in disguise of great pleasures.

Words can hardly describe how much Jacob was a blessing to me. The moment Johanna held him in her arms, I knew he would be a great son and model angel for your mission, Jesus. Satan’s minions will do anything to corrupt a child but with the love of you, Lord, we were able to expunge him of all that evil. So, Lord, I thank you for purging him of any early onset homosexuality from his body. One of Grampa’s many wives were able to take him under her wing and taught him how with the word of God, that he could be strong, and how to love you, Lord as well as give him the wisdom needed to do so on his own time. Grampa and his many wives and his apostles educated him in so many ways at such a young age, full of potential, and ready to harness your word, such as how to have true love, wisdom, and perhaps even justice, as early as eight. To let his mother show him the kind of love as she showed to me is truly magnificent as well, and she is one of the best teachers on such a thing. as a matter of course.

Indeed, Eliza and Ruth were also blessed. My beautiful daughters now know firsthand a true holy life under Grampa's prophetic teachings. They got the love and care they always deserved, much like how Grampa will be cared for in return by dividends on the New Earth. I prepared them for what they can expect and how to love Grampa and our many Uncles. Grampa was willing to take both their hands in marriage as soon as they could walk, with your blessing. He had mine automatically as well, for we give so much to Grampa and he, like David is our shepherd, a defeater of many great modern Philistines, Canaanites, and false idols with your word. They may have not understood it fully as I or my wife have, or even fully been ready to show such great love, but I knew the moment the marriage was held that they would not only be in good care of your hands, but several others. Thank you so much Jesus for all of these great wonders that life could give me and more!

In fact, I should thank you for showing me the path to love! My imagination was heavily weighed down by my own body that you blessed me with, to the point where I was getting complacent. I knew in my heart I let you down because you did so much for me. I was in grief in the back of my mind, and the amount of shame weighed down my very soul so heavily each morning I saw her. She is so beautiful and makes such great, loving, adorable, well crafted children, even up to last month. It was truly incredible that she could conceive so much for Grampa and our Uncles, and for me several times. I prayed, pleaded, and groveled to you, Jesus, but the answer came before me by your blessing of the imagination I needed. Yes, it was as Grampa said, that by seemingly divine vision, I could project a body of the most beautiful woman onto myself and transform for Jesus. Visualizing myself as a woman in congress with you was something Grampa assured me was possible and you delivered. Oh Lord, that was embarrassing to ask how to love you as much as my wife did, but eventually I could imagine myself as voluptuous and wholesome as he desired. Thank you so much, Jesus for giving me your love as allowing me the ability to reciprocate the same love in a way my wife, aunts, uncles, and even Grampa did.

It truly is a shame that we have to go so soon and so quickly, but I will thank you at long last for allowing us the privilege of getting the valium and potassium cyanide to us in good condition so that I can spare my wonderful family from the wrath of Satan and his evil creations of war. As I speak, my family is grieving and shedding off their mortal coils at last, ready to meet you. I am comforting them, all three of my littlest angels and my amazing wife. I am pleased they were able to sleep softly and transition to the New Earth in a heavenly sleep. I understand this is usually for other events such as the army coming to take us away and brain wash us once more, but now, it’s the best thing I can do to offer them love. We all are giving our love, with all our might, dear Jesus. You of all would understand that they deserve so much more than being cooked alive by the nuclear missiles or being shot down mercilessly by the hellhounds sent to rip us apart. Please, if this constitutes as murder, forgive me, Jesus. I am giving them the love that I can. The infinite love that is bursting from me and great empathy I learned from Grampa is being put to good use and I know my time is becoming as short as theirs.

Now, Jesus, they stopped moving. They stopped breathing. I will now meet you personally as well. Thank you Jesus for this quick way of ending my pain with the revolver Grampa gave me. I know it's not perfect, but this is just as quick, if not quicker than what I could ask for.

I love you, Jesus. I love you, Grampa! And most of all I love my family! Amen!