Submitted to: Contest #334

100 days of life

Written in response to: "Tell a story using a series of journal entries, diary entries, or letters."

Speculative

Page 1

I'm tired

Page 2

How did I survive 12 years of life?

Page 3

Every day feels like a marathon.

Page 4

What keeps me going?

Page 5

Maybe it’s hope, flickering like a candle in the dark.

Page 6

But the weight of it all sometimes feels unbearable.

Page 7

I search for answers in the silence.

Page 8

Is it normal to feel this lost?

Page 9

Each morning, I wake up, and the world feels heavy on my shoulders.

Page 10

I look in the mirror, searching for strength, but all I see is weariness.

Page 11

The faces around me seem to move in a different rhythm, unaware of my struggle.

Page 12

I wonder if anyone could truly understand the depth of my conflict.

Page 13

Conversations are like background noise, and I’m an outsider looking in.

Page 14

I occupy a space but feel so ungrounded, like I could float away at any moment.

Page 15

Do they hear the unspoken words that echo in my mind?

Page 16

Sometimes, it feels like I hold a secret too heavy to share.

Page 17

I try to distract myself, to fill the void with laughter and noise.

Page 18

But the laughter feels empty and hollow, like a mask I wear to hide the truth.

Page 19

What if I allowed myself to feel everything?

Page 20

Would it be freeing or a burden too great to bear?

Page 21

I wander through my thoughts, searching for a way out.

Page 22

The sun rises and falls, but the shadows remain.

Page 23

I find solace in the small moments—an unexpected smile, a gentle breeze.

Page 24

But those moments are fleeting, slipping away like grains of sand.

Page 25

Sometimes, I want to scream, to release the bottled-up feelings.

Page 26

Yet, silence seems safer, a comforting embrace.

Page 27

I cling to memories, both good and bad, shaping the person I am.

Page 28

Each scar tells a story, but some chapters are too painful to revisit.

Page 29

What would it take to forgive myself for feeling this way?

Page 30

In the night, thoughts become louder, impossible to drown out.

Page 31

In these moments, I question my existence.

Page 32

Is it selfish to want more?

Page 33

I envy those who float through life effortlessly.

Page 34

But I know everyone carries their burdens, hidden beneath the surface.

Page 35

I remind myself that it’s okay to ask for help.

Page 36

Yet, reaching out feels like standing on an edge.

Page 37

What if they don’t understand? What if I’m met with pity?

Page 38

I breathe in deeply, seeking courage to speak the truth.

Page 39

Each heartbeat echoes the desire for understanding.

Page 40

I need to believe that vulnerability is a strength, not a weakness.

Page 41

I find solace in nature, where silence speaks volumes.

Page 42

The rustling leaves and whispering winds seem to understand.

Page 43

Perhaps I’m not as alone as I feel.

Page 44

I begin to embrace the stillness, letting it wash over me.

Page 45

In moments of quiet, I can hear the faintest glimmer of hope.

Page 46

I wonder if healing is possible, if I can find my way back.

Page 47

I hold onto the notion that I am worthy of joy.

Page 48

But the path feels tangled and overgrown, difficult to navigate.

Page 49

I take small steps, searching for light in the shadows.

Page 50

With each breath, I remind myself that every journey is unique.

Page 51

I am not defined by my struggles, but by how I choose to rise.

Page 52

A moment of grace can change everything; I cling to that thought.

Page 53

Will I ever find the courage to rewrite my story?

Page 54

I long to discover the person I’m meant to be beyond the darkness.

Page 55

Promises of tomorrow linger, just out of reach.

Page 56

Would I have the strength to reach for them?

Page 57

In the depths of despair, moments of clarity often arise.

Page 58

I learn to navigate through the pain, seeking the lesson in each moment.

Page 59

It’s not about erasing the hurt but about embedding it into my journey.

Page 60

Sometimes, the journey requires pausing, just to breathe.

Page 61

It’s okay to slow down, even when the world pressures me to run.

Page 62

I find beauty in the ordinary, in the things I used to take for granted.

Page 63

Can I cultivate gratitude even when it feels so far away?

Page 64

I envision a time when I’ll look back and appreciate my quiet resilience and strength.

Page 65

Each challenge faced is a testament to my strength, even if I don’t see it.

Page 66

I explore self-compassion, allowing myself to feel.

Page 67

Can I forgive myself for the moments I’ve stumbled?

Page 68

Every imperfection tells a story, worthy of being acknowledged.

Page 69

As I reflect, I realize that healing isn’t linear; it’s a winding road full of curves and twists.

Page 70

I remind myself it’s okay to feel lost, that it doesn’t define my worth.

Page 71

What if I embraced the uncertainty instead of fearing it?

Page 72

Every question marks a chance for growth, a step toward understanding.

Page 73

I allow myself to be a work in progress, perfectly imperfect.

Page 74

I pick up the pen, ready to write my narrative.

Page 75

This is the beginning of a new chapter, a blank canvas.

Page 76

Will I eventually paint it with colors of hope and love?

Page 77

I’m learning that it’s okay to ask for help in penning my story.

Page 78

Support comes in many forms, and I’m opening my heart to receive it.

Page 79

Connection can be a lifeline, a bridge over turbulent waters.

Page 80

With each shared moment, the weight feels a little lighter.

Page 81

I think about the friendships that nourish my soul.

Page 82

They become anchors in my tough waters.

Page 83

What if I’m surrounded by love even when I don’t see it?

Page 84

My heart opens to the possibility of being vulnerable with others.

Page 85

The beauty of sharing is in the foundation of our stories mingling together.

Page 86

I find strength in community, in belonging and acceptance.

Page 87

Can I be brave enough to share my struggles, to close the gaps?

Page 88

I envision a time when my words could offer solace to another.

Page 89

In this journey, I might discover my purpose.

Page 90

The act of creation becomes a balm for my spirit.

Page 91

I find that poetry becomes an escape, expressing what lies within.

Page 92

Words flow like a river, sometimes chaotic, sometimes clear.

Page 93

Every verse carries a piece of my heart, a fragment of my truth.

Page 94

I embrace the joy that writing brings me, a release.

Page 95

Art becomes a language I can speak without fear of judgment.

Page 96

What if creativity is the key to unlocking my heart?

Page 97

I breathe life into the pages, illuminating the shadows.

Page 98

Each line written is a step toward acknowledging my pain.

Page 99

With every pen stroke, I break free from silence, reclaiming my voice.

Page 100

I transform despair into something profound, a testament to survival.

Posted Dec 23, 2025
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Lizzie Evan
21:43 Jan 10, 2026

Hey! I’ve been reading your story and really enjoyed it the emotions and flow felt very natural. While reading, I kept picturing how some scenes would look as comic panels.
I’m a commission-based comic/webtoon artist, and if you’re ever curious about a visual adaptation, I’d love to chat.
Instagram: lizziedoesitall

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