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Emelle Adams has crafted a captivating narrative for this well-written murder psychological thriller.

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Angela is running out of time. Already 48 and terminally ill with brain cancer she starts a bucket list '50 things to do before 50'. But what she really wants to do before she kicks the bucket isn't 'walking with alpacas' or being an extra in a film or even finishing her memoirs. It is seeking revenge on all those who wronged her over the years, all those who definitely deserve to die before she does, all those who would otherwise get to see how the story ends when Angela certainly won't..or will she?

The Bucket List is a tense psychological thriller about a woman’s obsession with finding and dishing out revenge to those who have hurt her throughout her life. But where can this end?

Angela's days are numbered. She has terminal cancer. Her friends convince her to write a bucket list. She is 48 and she wants to check off that list before she turns 50. Instead of traveling or trying new things she wants revenge. She has been wronged. Seeking her form of justice, Angela goes on a rampage.


The Bucket List needs an introduction. I was drawn into the story. In other parts, it opened some wounds. You see, as Angela describes her toxic relationship, a piece fell into place. I could never put my finger on what was wrong with my ex. The Bucket List nailed it. He was a sexual sociopath. Adams hooked me with this line: "It's a rare person who can trust again after being dishonored by a cheat." I totally get it. I felt Angela's pain, her doubt.


It's about time there are more stories about women being bloody angry. I can get behind that. I can sympathize with that. The Bucket List is a ticking time bomb style read. Angela is invisible. She was abused, she was bullied, and her schoolteacher was horrible. If this was a movie, would it be given the vision it deserves?


The Bucket List delves into toxic relationships and though it is not a pleasant experience, the psychology is threaded in with ease. On Angela's list were the cruel Miss Moleman, Tracey, Julie, and Debbie (high school bullies), her exes, and THE man. Yes, I may have been a bit too delighted to read how it unfolds but that is what makes a good story. I was with her in female solidarity.


What grabbed me was the part when Angela was telling her story and sharing her secrets. There was never a moment when I blamed her. Society tends to promote and encourage toxic masculinity. And the monkeys in The Bucket List were no help. I felt compelled to keep reading when she shared her relationship woes. The gaslighting, the preying on insecurities happen to women more than advertised. Murder secrets and revenge are all the right ingredients for a perfect psychological thriller. It had me chasing that high. Well done.

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I am a reader of a few genres but I have a particular fondness for the psychological thriller. I am comfortable reading about dark topics. I usually find my next read from random online discoveries. I usually rotate between reading a few books.

Synopsis

Angela is running out of time. Already 48 and terminally ill with brain cancer she starts a bucket list '50 things to do before 50'. But what she really wants to do before she kicks the bucket isn't 'walking with alpacas' or being an extra in a film or even finishing her memoirs. It is seeking revenge on all those who wronged her over the years, all those who definitely deserve to die before she does, all those who would otherwise get to see how the story ends when Angela certainly won't..or will she?

The Bucket List is a tense psychological thriller about a woman’s obsession with finding and dishing out revenge to those who have hurt her throughout her life. But where can this end?

Journal



I am furious, and I want everyone else to be too! My illness is 100 per cent terminal, but last time I checked, we all have a terminal illness—it’s called life. 

I want to tell my story, which is why I started this journal. Most people live their life as if it’s endless. I’m sorry to break it to you like this, but (surprise, surprise) it’s not. 

I should focus on being positive. I should talk about smiling in the face of death. I should spend my time laughing, making memories. I’d get a lot more sympathy if I did, if I accepted my impending doom with dignified grace. 

I’ve always wished I could be more graceful. Grace makes others feel more comfortable. People want that. They want optimism. They want to believe none of us are facing our expiry date. 

I am going to die soon—perhaps next year, or the next, or the next again. I might be blind, incontinent, and immobile prior to that. What will they say when I finally snuff it? Maybe they’ll say, ‘Thoughts and prayers. She’s in a better place now. Amen.’ 

We all want to be remembered well. In fact, being remembered at all would be great. But I’m so glad I won’t have to see all the platitudes on social media. The emojis! 

How has someone’s existence boiled down to a love heart or a crying yellow face? Is that it? Just pressing a modified ‘Like’ button on your phone? Not even a ‘With Sympathy’ card? However, I don’t want ‘Thinking about you’, ‘Love to you and all the family’, or ‘Sorry for your loss’, and I won’t be in a better place. 

I’m a terrible person—so selfish, so irritable. I even annoy myself. I’m pitiful. I have no self-control. Also, why am I so bloody angry all the time?



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About the author

Emelle Adams lives in East Lothian Scotland with her son and a white cat. view profile

Published on July 21, 2021

60000 words

Worked with a Reedsy professional 🏆

Genre:Psychological Thriller

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