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An enlightening and heartfelt memoir of the tattered ties and deep-seated traumas of adoption.

Synopsis

In this memoir, Lorraine Dusky recounts her longing for the daughter she couldn’t raise. After their eventual reunion, she discovers that family separation may have contributed to her daughter's problems. In the years that follow, Dusky begins to ask hard questions. What are the long-term effects of adoption? How accurate are adoptees' health histories? What questions do adoptees have about identity? What are the roadblocks to reunion, both legal and emotional? Why do adoptees need and deserve to know their heritage? What are the pitfalls of open vs. closed adoption?

Engaging, intimate, and moving, this is the life story of an exceptional journalist. In her quest for knowledge, she tries to answer the most important question of all. What is truly in the best interests of the child?

Adoption has been the topic on people's lips for years now. Whether it is "pro-lifers" advocating for pregnant women to rather give up a child for adoption rather than abort the fetus or people who cannot have children of their own choosing to give that love to a child birthed by someone else, those who end up giving up their children do so for various reasons. Whatever the reason, Lorraine Dusky deepens the narrative concerning the overwhelming circumstances that push birth parents to relinquish their child, the aftermath of reaching for the lifeline that is adoption, and how adoption (and its related legislation) affects the concerned child, specifically when it comes to the child's identity in Hole in My Heart: Love and Loss in the Fault Lines of Adoption.


The book is a memoir that is divided into various sections that encapsulate the part of the journey that Lorraine Dusky is walking at that time. Dusky is a mother who gave up her daughter. In this book, she writes about her experience with such grace and tenderness that her writing talent is undeniable. Her ability to tell her story is also made more impactful by how rounded it is. The book not only captures her personal experience but she contextualizes her experiences in what was happening in the United States of America in general. Contextualizing her reality in that fashion made her story more accessible, grounded, and relatable even if one has not walked in her shoes or lived during those times. This was a rich and enriching story to read. The excitement, pain, hope, and grief have all been spilled on the pages of this book like inkblots that force one to perform a Rorschach test on the state of affairs and see things that might not have been that clear at first.


As much as I loved many things about the book, I must acknowledge some of its shortfalls. It had some formatting issues in that the pictures in the book were placed in places where they usually cut sentences in the middle and were placed before they were contextualized. The tone of the book was another issue for me. As much as I understand the personal and sensitive nature of Dusky's story, I found the tone to be very 'woe is me' in that it pointed blame in many directions. This is not to say that the blame (like the one placed on Patrick) was misplaced or the law is not falling short (because it is), it is that it almost made the book into a propaganda piece. It became a very slanted read which seemed to project the idea that Dusky was a victim of various forces conspiring against her, without acknowledging many other angles and differently affected parties to the same story. Even with the parts I did not like, I still think that readers who enjoy political and sociological discourse drizzled with some family drama might love this book as it is definitely a page-turner.


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Synopsis

In this memoir, Lorraine Dusky recounts her longing for the daughter she couldn’t raise. After their eventual reunion, she discovers that family separation may have contributed to her daughter's problems. In the years that follow, Dusky begins to ask hard questions. What are the long-term effects of adoption? How accurate are adoptees' health histories? What questions do adoptees have about identity? What are the roadblocks to reunion, both legal and emotional? Why do adoptees need and deserve to know their heritage? What are the pitfalls of open vs. closed adoption?

Engaging, intimate, and moving, this is the life story of an exceptional journalist. In her quest for knowledge, she tries to answer the most important question of all. What is truly in the best interests of the child?

Coda

The mother walks in following a child who runs ahead of her. The child is two, could be three. I’m sitting at Starbucks in the morning reading the New York Times, wishing the music was turned down a tad. Sun is streaming through the window behind me. My husband, Tony, is doing the crossword puzzle. Both of us are writers, and it’s nice to get out of the house in the morning.

But for the moment—fifteen seconds or so—my attention is diverted to the child, and then to the mother, and back to the child. Unconsciously I look to see if the child resembles his mother. I want to be able to tell myself he is not the child of someone else. I want to reassure myself that the woman is his only mother.

I have been doing this ever since my daughter was born. Probably before. As soon as I knew I was pregnant.

Marylee MacDonald
Marylee MacDonald shared an update on Hole in My Heartabout 2 years ago
about 2 years ago
Once upon a time, in the days before Roe v. Wade, a young reporter found her soul mate on the city desk of Rochester, NY paper. The only problem? He was married and she was pregnant. Read Lorraine Dusky's riveting life story about love, identity, and adoption.
Marylee MacDonald
Marylee MacDonald shared an update on Hole in My Heartabout 2 years ago
about 2 years ago
I'm thrilled that tomorrow Reedsy is going to feature a preview of Lorraine Dusky's memoir, HOLE IN MY HEART. I'm publishing this memoir from my small publishing company, Grand Canyon Press, and I'm thrilled that the book is finally going to make its way into the world. The cover was designed by a designer I found right here on Reedsy, the fabulous Richard Ljoenes. If you follow me, I hope you'll take a look and give it your upvote.
Marylee MacDonald
Marylee MacDonald shared an update on Hole in My Heartabout 2 years ago
about 2 years ago
As publisher/editor/chief bottle-washer of Grand Canyon Press, I'm thrilled to announce a new book by Lorraine Dusky. Lorraine's memoir, HOLE IN MY HEART, found its cover designer, the fabulous Richard Ljoenes, right here on Reedsy. Here's Lorraine.

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Marylee MacDonaldHey, folks, I AM NOT THE AUTHOR. I am the publisher. Lorraine Dusky is the author.
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Marylee MacDonaldPLEASE NOTE EVERYONE, that I am the publisher of HOLE IN MY HEART, and it's a very fine book.
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About the author

I’m the publisher at Grand Canyon Press and the author of MONTPELIER TOMORROW, BODY LANGUAGE, BONDS OF LOVE AND BLOOD, THE RUG BAZAAR, and THE BIG BOOK OF SMALL PRESSES & INDEPENDENT PUBLISHERS. view profile

Published on March 21, 2023

Published by Grand Canyon Press

130000 words

Contains mild explicit content ⚠️

Worked with a Reedsy professional 🏆

Genre:Biographies & Memoirs

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