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To Water Her Garden

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A wonderful collection of free verse poetry about a journey of acceptance, self-love and self-compassion. Perfect for fans of Rupi Kaur.

Synopsis

This is a story about healing. From recognizing pain, to unveiling its origins, only to discover the power behind your failures. This is a journey towards self-love and recognizing that everything you are searching for starts with you. All it takes is the courage to do the work.

This is a stunning collection of poems. From the first poem I was captured by Mahmoodi's depiction of mental health, heartbreak, and self-acceptance. She displays her emotions so openly and passionately that I could almost feel the pain of some of the poems resonating off the page. I find poetry so personal, so individual, that I either entirely connect with an author's work, or I cannot relate at all. I really resonated with many of the poems in this collection, and I think that anyone who has struggled with their feelings, found it difficult to accept themselves, or experienced a transition from self-doubt to self-love will also enjoy this collection.


The collection is split into five sections, each one dealing with a part of Mahmoodi's life and her journey towards self-acceptance. She challenges expectations of love and pain, trauma and heartbreak, and is able to convey so much in only a handful of lines. She also does not shy away from sharing and questioning elements of life that society has deemed 'taboo'. A couple of the larger sections do jump between topics, but I feel as though this, whether intentional or not, mimics the way the brain cycles through thoughts quite chaotically, especially during times of sadness and introspection, so I didn't mind it. I tabbed so many of the poems that I really connected with, and will probably find myself returning to them often.


I think this is a wonderful collection for anyone that is struggling or has struggled with their mental health, recently gone through a heartbreak, or is attempting to love themselves. If you are looking for a way to articulate some of these thoughts, or recognise that you are not alone in your journey, then I highly recommend this collection. I really enjoyed it, and will look out for more of her work.

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Synopsis

This is a story about healing. From recognizing pain, to unveiling its origins, only to discover the power behind your failures. This is a journey towards self-love and recognizing that everything you are searching for starts with you. All it takes is the courage to do the work.

Confronting the pain

When I was a little girl,

I dreamed of conquering the world

and all its ailments.

Perhaps that’s where my problems began,

thinking I could bear the burden.

 

I am tired. Of the unhappiness. Of the sadness. Of the anger. Of the emptiness. What a joy it would be, to be happy about something, even if it seems like nothing at all.

[Searching for salvation]

 

I have learned to master the art

of picking myself up when I fall.

I’ve asked myself, “How do you do it?”

How have you not broken down yet?

Truth is

I’ve broken down in many ways.

The worst way

was pretending

I have it all together,

when I was dying inside.

[Faking the funk]

 

These emotions are too heavy

for me to carry.

Even when I let one go,

out comes another.

Maybe this is my body telling me

to feel the moment,

then let it drift away.

[But I can’t]

 

How do I forgive those who aren’t sorry?

How do I accept an apology I’ll never receive?

How do I practice grace upon those who wronged me?

Maybe forgiveness isn’t the answer.

Maybe it’s overrated.

[Choosing anger]

 

I have watered those who sucked the life out of me. I have given so much that I’ve become empty. I want that water back. Maybe give it to me, to remind myself of fullness. But I’ve become so empty that I no longer care to be watered. Just noticed. Appreciated, and tended to. I have nothing left to give to myself. So now I’m searching for something, anything, to fill me again.

[Hopeless]

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Published on April 18, 2019

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9000 words

Contains explicit content ⚠️

Genre: Poetry

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