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Capturing the Ghost

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Suffering with sexual and physical abuse is a feat in itself, but the memories are just as hard to overcome.

Synopsis

In Capturing the Ghost, author David Tanner Lauka tells his own extraordinary story of healing through the lens of a tormented adult named Aaron and his inner child who forces Aaron to acknowledge and accept the physical and sexual abuse from his childhood.

In this memorable true story, Aaron had always been a bit neurotic, but lately he was getting the feeling that he was being watched and that someone was coming for him. Ever since he met the Boy, his whole world was turned upside down. He realized that he was living a lie and was not sure if he was living in the past or present. The Boy takes Aaron on a two-year journey back in time, into a world that was too painful and brutal for him to endure before and faces the parts of his past that he was desperate to forget. As Aaron descends further into his childhood, he begins to lose his grip on reality and the will to live.

Capturing the Ghost is an autobiographical look at David Tanner Lauka’s battle to accept the physical and emotional abuse of his childhood, capture the ghosts of his past and reclaim his humanity.

Living with repressed memories, Aaron had created a new life for himself in a world where nothing bothered him and nothing harmed him. Lately, however, Aaron found himself weary of everyone, fearing that they were all out to get him. Thanks to The Boy, those repressed memories began to resurface, leaving Aaron nothing more than a ticking time bomb. Knowing that he experienced physical and sexual abuse from those who were supposed to be protect him, only makes things worse. The Boy, tired of suffering in silence, takes Aaron on a two-year journey to discover where he came from and who he truly is.


This memoir takes you on a journey through the day in the life of survivor of abuse, without revealing the real names of those who were involved. David Lauka describes the abuse in as much detail as possible, in order to help other survivors know that they are not the only ones. In this novel, Aaron's wife, Susie, and brother, Ruben, do their best to walk him through the panic attacks and nightmares through their experience in the trauma field. Even Paula, Aaron's therapist, tried to help him through the traumatic memories, but nothing seemed to soothe him better than a warm bath and MMA fighting.


As someone who has experienced abuse and even knowing others that have been in similar situations, Capturing the Ghost, at times became hard to read. The amount of description is not something that I could read all in one sitting. It will definitely force you to take a minute to get through each chapter, but it is certainly worth it in the end.


I would recommend this novel for anyone who has experienced abuse, and even those who haven't, as it can capture the attention of many. This is an issue that we all need to be privy of a society and take more seriously. Thank you David for sharing your experience, and I hope that it inspires so many others in the way that it did for me.

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My name is Emilia Rivera and for the past year, I have been writing book and movie reviews for my own personal blog Tell It Like It Is. There I present my opinion and provide recommendation on books I have read and movies I have seen.

Synopsis

In Capturing the Ghost, author David Tanner Lauka tells his own extraordinary story of healing through the lens of a tormented adult named Aaron and his inner child who forces Aaron to acknowledge and accept the physical and sexual abuse from his childhood.

In this memorable true story, Aaron had always been a bit neurotic, but lately he was getting the feeling that he was being watched and that someone was coming for him. Ever since he met the Boy, his whole world was turned upside down. He realized that he was living a lie and was not sure if he was living in the past or present. The Boy takes Aaron on a two-year journey back in time, into a world that was too painful and brutal for him to endure before and faces the parts of his past that he was desperate to forget. As Aaron descends further into his childhood, he begins to lose his grip on reality and the will to live.

Capturing the Ghost is an autobiographical look at David Tanner Lauka’s battle to accept the physical and emotional abuse of his childhood, capture the ghosts of his past and reclaim his humanity.

Introduction

In 2018, I experienced a mental breakdown in which the symptoms persisted and went untreated until late 2019. The cause of this breakdown was traumatic events from my childhood that were too painful to maintain in my conscious memory. These memories were stored deep in my subconscious, locked up in a part of my psyche that I was unable to access. That is, until 2018 when I first met the Boy who revealed to me years of my life that I had completely repressed, memories and experiences beginning when I was roughly 3 years old and lasting until I was about 8. He helped me understand the cause of my deep-seated fear of being alive, my own self-hatred, and helped me piece together the broken fragments of a childhood that should have never been.


This is the story of the journey the Boy and I took back in time to uncover and acknowledge the brutality of my childhood; of what I saw, felt, tasted, and experienced through various flashbacks, body memories, and panic attacks. It reveals my struggle to maintain some semblance of a normal life while reliving trauma from the past and my desperate attempts to retain my sanity as the ghosts of my past invaded deeper and further into my everyday life.


This story is a journey into the very underbelly of humanity and how a human being innately stores up, holds onto, and responds to trauma. It attests to the sacredness of life, the great power of life and death each person possesses, and the significant responsibility we all bear towards how we treat one another. It is an inside look into the long, painful process of acknowledging that while evil exists, beauty and love are out there somewhere as well, and victims of abuse deserve to lay claim to it.


Mine is a story of survival and liberation. It is a story of my refusal to lie drowning in a pool of my own self-loathing and my commitment to descend into the abyss of my past and claw my way back out to discover and embrace my humanity. It is ultimately a story of how I captured the ghosts of my past, exposed them to the Light of Truth, and watched them eviscerate into dust.



David Tanner Lauka

April 25, 2020


About the author

David Tanner Lauka is the founder of Slaughterhouse Combat, a non-profit organization designed to equip trauma survivors to battle their fears through the martial arts. He is a childhood trauma survivor who suffers from PTSD and hopes to use his story to encourage others in their journey of healing. view profile

Published on August 31, 2020

60000 words

Contains explicit content ⚠️

Worked with a Reedsy professional 🏆

Genre: Biographies & Memoirs

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