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somewhere between shadow and light

By Mariesa Faer

Loved it! 😍

Faer's collection is true to the title as her words shift and shimmer between shadow and light.

Synopsis

somewhere between shadow and light
is a romantic satire of interwoven stories about family
intimate relationships
menstruation
anxiety and depression
societal patterns
cultural norms
fear and death
love
inner peace
and the quest for one’s inner truth

a spectrum of one human’s shifting perspective
through a growth cycle
recorded in voice

this book is a physical residue of
and tribute to
the awakening of clarity

the poems grow and expand at variant
rates from shadow to light

we each find ourselves in a variance of clarity
at differing moments in time
with differing degrees of light
through which our perceptions serve us

here lies
the etched
entrenched relief
of my journey
somewhere between shadow and light

somewhere between shadow and light harnesses the power of short sentiments and detailed illuminations of the soul. Love, lust and sensuality float alongside loss, grief and fury in this collection; showcasing the kaleidoscopic nature of human experience.


The theme I felt permeated the entire collection, however, was liberation. There are pieces which explore the liberation of your body, your sexuality, your soul and your independence; all of which are incredibly powerful. Faer speaks as a woman who knows her own mind - a woman who has already learnt much from life.


Poems like 'Cocoon' and 'Slip' celebrated growth honestly, reminding the reader healing 'isn't linear'. Beside these short yet poignant poems are much longer pieces which I personally found to be the crowning glory of this collection. Faer certainly has a way with words; her longer pieces (like 'Shield') weave stories we can all relate to rather than sharing isolated experiences. The lines 'strange/as not caged' resonated with me in particular; the sense of being imprisoned for so long, freedom feels alien. Yet, we grasp for it and learn to become accustomed to the new, unfamiliar taste before finally calling it home.


All in all, somewhere between shadow and light is a journey of loss and of healing documented gorgeously by a writer who I look forward to seeing more from in the future.


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I've been running my own blog for just over two years now, as well as editing the blog Free Verse Revolution which showcases the work of writers from all over the globe. I'm an avid reader and work as a freelance editor for indie publishers. I'm also an English teacher.

Synopsis

somewhere between shadow and light
is a romantic satire of interwoven stories about family
intimate relationships
menstruation
anxiety and depression
societal patterns
cultural norms
fear and death
love
inner peace
and the quest for one’s inner truth

a spectrum of one human’s shifting perspective
through a growth cycle
recorded in voice

this book is a physical residue of
and tribute to
the awakening of clarity

the poems grow and expand at variant
rates from shadow to light

we each find ourselves in a variance of clarity
at differing moments in time
with differing degrees of light
through which our perceptions serve us

here lies
the etched
entrenched relief
of my journey
somewhere between shadow and light





 

 

 

somewhere between

shadow and light

 

a soul grows

 

unfurling amidst the elements

a soul comes to know

itself

 

somewhere between

shadow and light











to those who

held the shards of my shattered soul together

while I glued through spicy tears

 

walked me through my nightmares

and stood still beside

as I screamed away the pains

of a lost heart

 

this is for you

 


 


 


 

 

 


elements :



shadow


between


light







 

 



 

shadow


 



 

 

darkness builds

it builds up all around

 

if you let it

and you don't check it

 

it will try to take you down


 


I sleep

in the belly

of a great battle

 

sometimes

the sniggers

sights and stories of living

sneak in

and shake me awake

 

greeting my adjusting eyes

with a tease of tension

like a frozen hide

on damp dormant skin

 

 I N S O M N I A


 

 

 

 

 I drink and smoke

and poke all around

inside my mouth

 

a futile attempt

to relieve a tension

 I wrote for myself

 

 I F O N L Y  I  C O U L D F I N D  T H E E R A S E R


 

 

 

 

 

there’s a tightness

in my chest

tugging from throat to navel

calling on me to address

what makes my soul unravel

 

S O M A T I C S I G N S


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

my anxieties

fill up my mind

and cause me to forget

all the time

as it passes

beneath the shadows

of my eyes

 

 

D I S T R A C T I O N S

 

 

 

 


 

 

I see the denial

behind their eyes

 

they watch through blindness

as my spirit cries

 

I can't

keep saying no forever

 

so I'll go

 

- create some distance -

 

to avoid

breaking the hearts that hold

me too close

and suffocate without seeing

the pain they cause

from too much dependence

 

what they mistake

as freeing

 

C O D E P E N D E N C Y


 

 

 


 

I'd slice off my sadness

goose bump by goose bump

but would you notice the scars

or just presume I have

cat scratches on

my forearms

 

S E L F - H A T E

 

 

 

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

my woman parts ache in anticipation

for the pain they have inherited

 

for goddess' sake

I'd like another

I'm on a dating prohibition

 

I've got vagina splinters from all the

bad wood I've been working

in the shop


 

 

 

 

 

 

oh I know I can please you

just gimme a minute

to adjust myself

to make you happy

to make you feel

how I know you like to

 

with the lightest

the slightest touch I can

force the good stuff

while I hide myself behind

our intimacy

 

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

the stairs jump around

before my fuming eyes

 

my vision shaking

the ground quaking

 

beneath your piles of lies

 

F I G H T S



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I slept in the snow

last night

 

still

 

it was warmer

than being with you

 

R E S E N T M E N T


 

 

 


 

 

swat me away

like a fly

too many times

and I just might die

 

D I S R E G A R D


 



 

do emotions like this

kill you

can emotions this strong

take you down

 

?

 

H O W A M  I  S T I L L H E R E


 

 


C O R T I S O L

 

darkness and light sometimes

confuse themselves

behind

my eyelids

at night

as

this slow

creeping thing

that haunts me

while I dream

refuses to decide

if I will survive

or take myself down

before the next sunrise

 


 

 

my hyper - awareness

lay over me like a film

 

a dewy

glassy

peeling film

 

sure

 I stretch it and

tug at it and

peel some of it off

 

yet it lies there

 

prohibiting

what could be

greatness


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

even when I'm driving

all alone in my car

the anxiety comes creeping in

 

it’s never off too far

 

and I wonder

what would be left of me

without this anxiety

 

 

F R E E D O M


About the author

storyteller and poetess by birth she strives in her creative actions to focus her light in the right directions even through the toughest of shadows view profile

Published on August 08, 2019

Published by Smokeblood

30000 words

Contains explicit content ⚠️

Genre: Poetry

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