Day One – The Voice
“At the center of your being you have the answer;
you know who you are and you know what you want.”
—Lao Tzu
“You’re not going to believe this,” I said, standing naked in front of Phil as water dripped off me onto the carpet. “I’m talking to God in my head!”
“What?” Phil asked, glancing away from his video game. As soon as he saw me, he dropped the controller. “What do you mean?”
I walked to the bathroom and grabbed a towel. “I’m not sure. I’m asking questions, and I hear the answer in my head.”
“What makes you think it’s God?”
“The voice told me it’s God. It said I was God.”
“What does that mean?”
“I have no idea.”
“Can I ask it something?” Phil asked.
Fear slammed through me. Phil has a very open mind, so he’ll give any idea a chance. At the same time, he’s super analytical. I hadn’t heard the voice since I had gotten out of the shower a few minutes earlier. I was already doubting what had happened. If this wasn’t God in my head, he’d know right away. My heart started racing and sweat beaded on my upper lip. I wanted to say no. I wanted to run back into the shower and keep it all to myself. I would never be able to answer his questions. Before I could run and hide, I heard the voice again. Relax. You don’t have to answer anything. I love you. Trust me.
I still wasn’t sure. I didn’t want to lie to Phil, or pretend to be something I’m not. The voice heard my doubts and said, Lie down. Close your eyes. Let me do the talking. You don’t have to do anything. I knew that wasn’t my voice answering me. I had never known anything with so much certainty.
I lay down on the couch and Phil asked a question. I heard the answer and spoke it out loud. After that, the voice took over, and I didn’t hear the answers between the question being asked and the words coming out of my mouth. It felt wonderful to relax and let the voice take over. I felt enveloped in warmth and love. And the voice was right. I didn’t have to answer anything. I just had to allow it to flow.
Phil and my inner voice talked for about an hour. At the end, he was convinced the answers were coming from somewhere beyond me, beyond Erin. I was convinced as well, because I could feel the difference the whole time.
We weren’t expecting that first conversation, so we didn’t record it. This conversation you’re about to read is actually our second, which took place the following day. If it feels awkward at times, like Phil’s reading from a list of questions, it’s because he was. Those first few days, we were both nervous. We didn’t want to do anything to mess this up and make I Am go away. Phil wrote questions he thought of during the day so he wouldn’t be left with his mouth hanging open, wondering what to say next. When we started to understand how much I Am loves us all, Phil relaxed and the conversations flowed naturally.
Day Two – No Limits
“If the doors of perception were cleansed
Everything would appear to man as it is, infinite.”
—William Blake
Phil: Who are you?
I Am: I Am. You would probably call me God, but I Am. There’s nothing else but me. In the beginning, my mind in the spiritual world was all that existed. The physical world did not exist. Only my thoughts existed, and all of my thoughts created immediately. Then, I thought a physical world, and it was projected from my mind into existence.
Phil: Is Erin channeling you?
I Am: No. I am Erin’s inner voice. Erin is me just like you are me, Phil. Every human is me. Every human can access me. When somebody says they’re channeling something outside of themselves it’s because they don’t understand that they are God and that we are all one.
Phil: If I’m God, why do I worry so much?
I Am: Worry comes from not knowing that you are God and that every thought you have creates.
Phil: Every thought I have creates?
I Am: Yes. I am everything. We are all one. Through thought, I have created everything in the physical world. It is possible for you to think and create because your inner self is God, whether you know it or not.
That is the one truth, one law: I Am and I create. Each thought I, and therefore, you have creates precisely, every time. There is nothing in the physical world that was not first created in mind. It is true that who you are, what you are surrounded by and the life you lead is a manifestation of human thoughts, both yours and others. You are what you know, who you believe, and that starts in mind.
I am your inner voice. I am always guiding you, but it is your choice to listen or not. I want you to create a joyful life through knowing intent. I do not want you to feel helpless, as if things happen to you instead of by you.
