A Hurricane's Yellow Light
My first childhood memory is colored with muted shades of yellow and whispers of birds’ frantic chirping. We lived in south- ern Texas, and as my parents boarded up the house windows to protect us from an impending hurricane, I stayed in my room, straddled atop my next-door neighbor girlfriend, playing my favorite game, “Marriage.’’ I always wanted to be the husband because it felt the best.
As an adult, I wanted to have a greater understanding about this moment. I know that masturbation is normal. Still, I extensively researched the subject of childhood masturbation and learned that there are many reasons a young child might engage in this activity. For me, I sought pleasure from masturbation. I needed this activity to relieve the incredible stress and anxiety I experienced at home. However, in the research I read, psychologists warned that normal childhood masturbation becomes worrisome when a child engages another child in this activity. Mutual masturbation is an indicator that someone has taught the child to masturbate.