Introduction / Chapter Titles
inkwells.
a poetry collection
a message from the author
inkwells. is the product of the worst mental health relapse of my life thus far, which was caused by the fact that I’d been doing extraordinarily well in ignoring and neglecting my symptoms when my body and mind were clearly warring, and I opted to remain the nonchalant referee.
For people both battling and not battling with mental health disorders of any degree, there is specific subject matter and blunt language used at frequent intervals throughout the work which may appear disturbing, as the collective and comprehensive themes of inkwells. are mental health, self-harm and thoughts of suicide. This message will be the only trigger warning incorporated so as to not wrongfully gauge which poems may or may not be triggering according to an individual reader, and to not disrupt the flow of the work. I urge any and all readers to confront any negative feelings which may, understandably, be triggered due to the dark themes, and discontinue reading this work should the subject matter become too impactful.
inkwells. is my chronicling of the authentic and realistic notions which I created as a sort of self-medication to abstain from the self-destructive urges I was experiencing. Under no circumstances should any reader compromise their mental health to analyze or endure mine.
I wish you all the best during your mental health journey, and I remind you confidently and honestly that recovery is possible. Please stick around to see it.
Be safe and well,
Margaret Beaver
Contents
a message from the author 7
Sad boy. 10
bridges 12
burning. 19
Fine Line. 22
fishbowl 27
Girl of Thunder 29
home. 33
I am an arborist 37
I Dare Me. 42
Just a Little More Me. 47
Love is to Burn. 53
poets dream.. 56
Questions & Regrets 60
Wallflower 63
orchid. 67
half girl 73
There Will Be Peace. 77
me & my ghost 83
childhood revival 86
Die in dignity. 92
landing. 96
sad // healed. 101
reminders 106
The visionary. 109
looking glass 113
it doesn’t have to make sense. 118
my crown is made of warning signs 123
Avenue. 129
I love you. 133
we are infinite. 138
Sister Feline. 144
chameleon. 148
On the bayou. 156
Know our names 161
Parental Guidance. 165
meg. 171
inkwells 175
Mom (bonus piece) 180
feeling suicidal?. 184
