I know it sucks when your mother doesn't care about you.
When the person who should love you doesn't love you the most.
And was never there for you.
The woman who gave you life from the first moment you were just a seed inside her.
The woman who brought you to the light of this world for the first time.
And it really sucks when she told you:
- That you are the root of her problems.
- Her life was perfect until you came.
- She wanted a perfect family, and you don't fit in.
- She wanted a son and you are a girl, or vice-versa.
- You are the worst thing that happened to her.
Not all moms are meant to be moms.
I know your mom put you through much pain, mentally and physically, and the worst thing is she thought she was doing the best for you and your brothers.
You suffer from anxiety and depression.
I don't know if you still love her or care about her. Maybe you hate her. Maybe she's the evilest woman in your life. I got you, I don't blame you, and I really get it. You feel this way for many reasons and you have a right to.
- This person hurt you very deeply in the moments you needed her the most.
- This person hurt your feelings and played with your emotions. She destroyed your belief in mothers.
You struggle with anxiety and depression from your past because of her.
HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE
(understand your mother and accept)
It may be the example her own parents gave her. So, understand that she is continuing the same pattern with you. Maybe she had a void in her childhood; an emptiness and loneliness. I don't know your situation but people say: hurt people hurt people. I am sure there must be an explanation, whatever the situation is, and I am extremely sympathetic.
Holding Grudges and Resentments from the Past Is a Poison from Your Own Bottle.
Holding resentments, grudges, feelings of revenge, and hate for your mom is a trap that only you can fall into. It's like a targeted poison that requires a personalized antidote; you are the only person affected by these resentments and hatreds.
And you may not care too much about this now, but living with these emotions, in the long term, can cause several dangerous health conditions such as: severe stress, gut health, advanced anxiety, and premature aging, among others, according to scientific studies. These areemotions that are punishing your body and mind. Now you understand why you suffer anxiety, depression, and loneliness. So, why continue hurting yourself?
If you keep these feelings (hate and revenge), you know what happens. You keep taking the poison, and the poison can kill you. But if you forgive, you free yourself from the trap.
You are not alone in this
You are not the only person, there are millions of people who were in your situation, maybe even worse off, but they had the desire and the intention to change their life by forgiving, and releasing hate and resentments that were just blocking their path forward. You can definitely do the same; if they could do it, so can you. You deserve all the best things in life as well: happiness, inner peace, success, love, and enjoying life to the fullest. You are a wonderful person, so believe you are.
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