Despair
Sit and wait
Dark world, lonely world
I just hate feeling so alone
Love’s passed me by
I’m tormented by my mind
About all I once had
That now is lost and far apart
Dark world, lonely world
I can’t even say a word
On how afraid I am
About losing it all once more
About being right on who I think I am
About the monster taking control over my life
Dark world, lonely world
When will this end? I keep wondering all day
This demon in my head has defeated me again
I guess trying to escape won’t be a clever way
To deal with this shit or take a break
‘Cause now I’ve opened the door and it won’t close anymore
Dark world, lonely world
I guess I’ll just have to let go
Accept my life and my void
Accept that I can’t love myself, no
I open my heart and spread my arms
Take me where you want me to go now
Dark world, lonely world
I don’t know what else to mourn
Does my past hurt, or my vision of the future?
Am I insane, or is it all inside my head?
Will I have an enjoyable fate?
I guess I’ll just sit and wait
I’ll just sit and wait
Jewel of mine
Return that jewel of mine
The one that made me feel loved and warm
The one with which I was immune to harm
The one with which I was not afraid to talk
Return that jewel of mine
Because I’m not taking a way out
I’ll face my fear and pain right now
Hoping they won’t blow my mind
Return that jewel of mine
I want to be brave once again
In this life I wish I’d find my place
‘Cause I just want to be happy again
Return that jewel of mine
Let me love my inner child back
He’s so broken and sad
Because he couldn’t have his mom and dad
Return that jewel of mine
Waiting will only keep breaking my heart
Please allow me to be alive
Please allow me to accept who I am
Return that jewel of mine
Let’s just sit down and cry
I’ll hug you, please hug me back
We just need to talk
Return that jewel of mine
So I can express the beauty in my eyes
So I can feel love by my side
So I can leave all this pain in the past
Return that jewel of mine
I need love, I need to smile
Look at me, open your eyes
Before I’ve taken too much and die